tikus' day out in the city..

2012-01-14T00:44:00.002+08:00

hello peeps.

it has been a very long while.. i tried to have time to sit and write but those times eludes me. and i dont regret them, i dont even begrudge losing them.

sooner or later, sometime in the future, i will start again this blog. this is some of my memoirs and i dont intend to lost them.

2011-07-08T11:03:00.004+08:00

i am in the mood to write today.

somehow, the thought of not being able to do the things only you do by yourself scared the s*** out of me. like writing the blog that i have forgotten for so blardy long. like downloading and reading all my trashy books and ebooks. like rolling on the bed under the covers in an air-cond room after hubby went to work, not really sleeping but just being..

yesterday i went out to do errands by myself. i didnt realize it until i got back home that i wanted to do it rather than i have to do it. i shouldnt do it coz i'm so sarat already and cant even breathe properly let alone managed to do all the errands that i planned to do if i were not preggers. all of the cashiers and sales person were commenting "oh beraninya u keluar dah dekat nak bersalin ni"

i was like "huh?"

what should i do then? stay at home at wait? i am already freaked out with all this and you want me to sit alone, at home, nothing to stop me from thinking of all the possible potential disastrous antics i could "inflict" on my child as he grows up and freaked me out some more???

eeeeiiikkk.... thank you but no thanx. i rather have shortness of breath from walking too much than that.

tonight, we are going on a date. our last one before everything changes.

2011-07-08T10:17:00.002+08:00

I am starting to hyperventilate..

i've just realised that today is the last day that i'm going to be ALONE with hubby!! after this, there's no more "just the two of us"..

no, i'm not gonna deliver tomorrow but starting from tomorrow, the family will start coming in and then on Monday the lil bundle of joy will be here!

oh, have i told you that i'm delivering on Monday?

yes, we've made "an appointment" to have him on Monday the 11th of July 2011 at 830 in the morning. i should probably made it at 1107am as well but hey..

so, yes, lil bundle of joy will be here on Monday morning and from then on our lives as we know it will change forever. there's no more only "you" and "me", the priority is now different.

what am i feeling?

happy, nervous, stressed out.. all the above and many many more. after living for yourself for the last 34 years, you will be responsible for another human being..

oh god, give me strength..

2011-07-01T21:21:00.002+08:00

my maid is annoying the hell out of me!!!

uurrrggghhh!!!

she has been with us for a full month already and still, some of the things have to be repeatedly told and reminded over and over again. i mean, come on! how difficult is it to remember to wash your hands? or to not answer "apa" when people call you? or just pls DO NOT SMELL??!!!

i am not a screamer and amazingly, i havent shouted or screamed at her but i can nag, especially after coming back from the office at 8pm and hvg to cook with her and hvg to withstand her sheer endless stupidity. her usual answer "saya lupa, kak".. and of course i had to tell her over and over again. most of the time she will try to answer back "di sana saya buat begini" and now that i've told her "kamu bukan di sana. kalau kamu mau buat seperti di sana, balik lah ke sana. di sini, kamu buat seperti cara di sini" she doesnt asnwer back as much.

is that too much to ask of an employee of yours??

for the whole month, i dont think there's anything that she's good at. sayang told me that i am too exacting at the standards for someone who's uneducated and literally uncivilised, well, maybe but she's not here for free.

Week 37, Day 3

2011-06-28T19:34:00.002+08:00

"Before you were conceived, I wanted you.
Before you were born, I loved you.
Before you were an hour, I would die for you.
This is the miracle of love."
— Maureen Hawkins

at 38th week, he is now full term and weighing at 3.2kg +/-200g... he is still in a breech position, but now vertically rightsideup, i can feel his head poking at my ribs.. sayang told me he just want to be closer to mommy :)

sweet huh?

but not so sweet at night when he decides that neither one of mommy's sleeping positions is suitable for him! i cant sleep on either of my side comfortably with him squirming. he'll only stop squirming when i lay flat on my back, which is WAY uncomfortable!!! i cant breathe and my back hurts...

so sleepless nights.. and someone told me that he's just making me practice for what to come next, more sleepless nights.. sigh...

notty boy, u...

anyways, since i'm due in another 2 and a half weeks, my doc told me that i may go into labor at any time now, and he's not comfortable with the idea of lil baby in the breech position.. it may be dangerous in the event of emergency.. touch wood, nauzubillah..

so next monday on my next checkup, if he's still enjoying his right side up position, i will be making an appointment for a C-sect. mommy can heal slower if she has too, scars daddy can pay for laser later, but i refuse to endanger you...

Week 36, Day 1

2011-06-18T21:52:00.002+08:00

have i told you that he is now in a horizontal position across my belly?

yes, d lil bundle of joy in mommy's tummy has decided that being upside down is not fun anymore and moved himself in his cramped space.

now, my tummy felt stretched like crazy and i may hv to hv a c-sect if he still decides that being horizontal is the most comfortable position ever!

2011-06-12T12:32:00.002+08:00

and she membebel some more!!

excusez-moi, i can speak indonesian k, though there are some words that i dont understand but it's literally the same language.

and auntie, u definitely dont want ME to start membebel!

i'm already mengah as it is and it's enough that i have to tell you to WASH YOUR HANDS every five minutes, i dont think you want me to start..

2011-06-12T12:27:00.002+08:00

oh come on.. how difficult is it to wash the toilet?

anything and everything that has to be cleaned in this house has been done by me or my husband, ergo, it is not that difficult to do and as such, since you are the full time maid, you should be able to do it as well.

when i said SCRUB, scrub lah!!

i have scrubbed the toilet before so i know it can be done!

Week 34, Day 7

2011-06-11T19:27:00.002+08:00

oh god, 5 more weeks to go, maybe even less..

our last checkup on monday showed that mommy's boy is now approximately 3kgs!! and i have another month to go.. it would have not scared me if it's not for the fact that 3 weeks ago he's only 1.8kg! take that into account and he may be well above 4kg by the time he's ready to meet us!

but it's OK.. i am grateful and thankful to god for him.. alhamdulillah..

i dont get it.

2011-06-04T22:35:00.002+08:00

i have not blogged on other topics nowadays other than the progress of my pregnancy and what this little bundle of joy in mommy's-tummy is currently doing.. nothing else rate much interest nowadays..

but this current hoop-la about "the obedient wife club" really bugs me..

have u heard or read about it?

i mean, COME ON!

i wonder where all these warped ideas come from. i cant believe someone actually said that "Domestic abuse happens because wives don’t obey their husband. He must be responsible for his wife’s well-being but she must listen to him”...

good god, really?

i wish ALL THE VERY BEST to the speaker who uttered those words.

and more..

“We just want to ask all the wives to be obedient wives so that there will be fewer problems in our society such as infidelity, divorce and domestic violence". can you believe that the speaker herself is in a polygamous marriage? as the second of her husband’s two wives?

think, people. before the husband legally marries the 2nd wife, what did he do? of course he had to get to know his 2nd-wife-to-be, courted her, dated her..

thus, in LITERAL TRANSLATION OF THE TIKUS, CHEATED ON THE 1st WIFE WITH HER. isnt that infidelity?? well, unless of course, the husband married the 2nd wife blindly or for "religion-sake" because she's a war-widow that needs taken cared of or something. not bloody likely, huh?

worse with 4 wives! he got away with cheating THREE times on his 1st wife, twice on the 2nd and blah blah..

i got tired and "mengah" just reading about this.. but these days, i try not to think or even care about these things.

each to their own.

Week 33, Day 4, Part 2

2011-06-01T20:15:00.002+08:00

as of today, i am now officially 70 kilos.

yes, SEVENTY! a number that hasnt even crossed my mind, my scale, in the last 33 and a half years of my life.

that is 12 kgs more than my normal average weight..

and there's another month to go..

Week 33, Day 4

2011-06-01T20:04:00.002+08:00

i swear to god he thot he's getting a bike when he's coming out next month!

why?

coz he's been pedaling inside mummy's tummy like nobody's business!!!

sorry baby, not that soon.. but if it were really up to me, u will not, i repeat, WILL NOT, ever, learn how to ride a bike, a motorbike, a superbike or whatever family or crossover it will have in the future.

not even when u're 40.

i'd rather u start hvg sex at 15 (nauzubillah!) than ride a bike that can harm u.

but unfortunately, ur dad has 50% of the vote on this topic, the bike riding that is, not the hvg sex bit.

Week 32, Day 1

2011-05-22T16:38:00.002+08:00

Today, he's about 8 months old in my tummy.. another 8 more weeks to go.. lucky numero 8 huh?

but most of the time, i'm confused with this timing thingy.

we learn that human pregnancy is 9 months.

so, by months calculation, there's another month to go.

but by weeks calculation, there's 8 more weeks to go, which is abt 2 months, which makes human pregnancy 10 months!

apakah??

Week 30, Day 3

2011-05-10T20:56:00.002+08:00

he's getting bigger!!!

and will get bigger somemore..

i am back to the first trimester mode but a bit worse; i'm so freaking exhausted, i cant breathe properly, i cant sleep properly, i cant eat, food smells starting to bug me again.. but the worse thing is, i'm starting to want a ciggie!!!

for the past 6 mths i havent had a craving for a drag.. after that hellish 1st mth of cold turkey-ing and wanting to bite the head off the next person, i have no craving for a ciggie at all. even the smell bugged me.. but now, i cant seem to wait to have a puff..

Week 29, Day 7 Part 2

2011-05-07T12:13:00.003+08:00

Selingan rancangan jap k..

i had to go and sidai baju and comtemplated whether to iron hubby's clothes today or tomorrow..

well, tomorrow it is then..

ever since hubby moved to P, he has uniforms to wear. and unfortunately, he has only 4 of them at the moment. they are still waiting for more stocks.

so imagine having only 4 shirts to wear!!

no, no, no, wrong imagination.

imagine being a WIFE to a guy who has only 4 shirts to wear!!!!

of course i had to do laundry and iron every week twice a week!!

eeeiiiggghhhhh!!!!

i've even asked him if i can take one of his uniforms and have them replicated at pertama, preferably 14 sets!! he laughed and asked me "arent u in the IP section of your company? isnt that infringing?"

huh? do i look like i care?

Week 29, Day 7 Part 1

2011-05-07T11:47:00.002+08:00

panas nya hari ini..

i already have ulcers in my mouth from the episode with the durian.. like jeez, i didnt even eat one whole durian, just like 5 ulas or something.. and now, the heat is just killing me.. and of course, the letrik bill will cause a heavy dent for this mth's utility. yes, i turned on all 4 of the airconds within my reach.

today, we're going to melaka for a visit. my bro is already there from yday and i'm hoping for another bro to be there as well with his family. i havent visited my parents since ages. mostly because i was, and i think still am, annoyed and irritated with them. well, that's another story.

tomorrow, the little bundle of "squirming-in-mommy's-tummy" joy will be 30 weeks old, and so there's 10 more weeks to go.. only 10??

eeeiiiiggghhhh!!!

i have been dreading the thought of "labor".. for the past 29 weeks, i have not thought about it at all. mainly, i had been engrossed with the fact that i am still spotting every now and then, my discharge is getting heavier and the best fact ever baby boy is moving like nobody's business :)

we are still busy preparing for his stuff, going back and forth to baby stores. daddy-o insisted on getting his son's first set of everything from mothercare while mommy just rolled her eye and snapped the nearest baby blankie, clothes etc from babyland.

"sayang, tak sampai sebulan pun nanti dia dah tak boleh pakai. tak payah spend banyak2 k"

did he listen to me?

well, we have yet to go to mothercare :))

Week 29, Day 5

2011-05-05T22:45:00.002+08:00

acid reflux, wind and indigestion are in da house!!

eiiihhh...

Week 29, Day 3

2011-05-03T23:25:00.002+08:00

oh good god...

lil baby boy doesnt like durian.. poor baby, he's so restless last nite and the whole day today..

Week 29, Day 1

2011-05-01T17:46:00.002+08:00

I am loving the fact that my child is elbowing me from within.. Sometimes it makes me laugh coz i can just imagine his grimace "mommy, i need more space la.."

I am loving the fact that he is growing and i can imagine him rolling his eyes and saying "yea, yea, what's new"

Most of all, i am just loving the fact that he's there, so loved and cherished..

week 28, Day 6 Part II

2011-04-29T21:23:00.001+08:00

sayang, cepatla, lapar k..

Week 28, Day 6

2011-04-29T21:08:00.003+08:00

it finally dawned to me that it's not worth feeling crap over something that you can avoid in the first place - just dont be in that situation in the 1st place..

easier said than done. especially when they involve friends.

and at this day and age, it's not easy to make new friends. well, acquaintances are abundance but real friends are not that easy to find.

do u just suck it up and paste a cheery smile on your face and blame everything on your tumultuous hormones?

sometimes.

but nah, i dont think so, not now.

Week 20, Day 7

2011-03-05T16:54:00.002+08:00

we had a full day already today and it's not over yet...

in a few minutes the washing machine will beep and i have to sidai baju and then rush to tiara ampang to check on the cleaners for the house to be ready for our new tenants.

when i let them in earlier today i expected that they would have all the required stuff to CLEAN a house. and when i instruct them to clean the toilet "ah, clorox enggak ada la kak"

what??

sometimes i wonder...

Week 20, Day 2

2011-02-28T22:50:00.003+08:00

i swear to god he got bigger last weekend!

oh, have i told u that our little bundle of joy is a boy?? oh yes, we did in total three scans to check his birdie.. one was about in week 10 or something and the other two were during week 18.. and this one is definitely not a shy kid..

"what, mummy wants to see? oh here you go.."

and there, we can see his birdie..

it was quite fun to see actually, the scan as a whole i mean :) especially when he's trying to sleep and we're just poking him with the scanner thing. u can see him tossing and turning and sometimes trying to suck his thumb!! oh baby, pls dont suck ur thumb!! *sigh*

so today, i feel like a mini-whale.. or at least a walrus.. whichever one that's big and breathe heavily coz i cant seem to find my breath anywhere! have i left it somewhere?? i cant remember, my brain seemed to be on stand-by most of the time lately, if not all of the time! i swear to god my boss is going to think that i fail english or something, coz she had to correct my board paper three times!!!! and they are all silly spelling and grammar mistakes, not content mistake k!! malunya!!!

so, that's it for tonight!

HAHAHAHA!!!

i know, i know.. when i started this post, i actually have something to write about.. and then i got lost somewhere in the middle and by the time i got to the walrus thing i completely forgot what i was going to write.. i kept think, hmmmm, which one is bigger, walrus or mini-whale? is there a mini-whale??

OMG!! i swear.....

Week 17, Day 6

2011-02-12T18:39:00.002+08:00

today we went to see the curtain contractor at the house. honestly i thought our main contractor will just pasang the rods or the rails and i will go get the curtain myself. and then, J came with samples and samples of curtains..

damn... this is going to be expensive.

nevermind, lets just see how expensive.

so we went through the whole house, measuring, picking choosing.. since there's only going to be 3 of us there for the time being, i decided to only pasang the ground floor, the master bedroom and the 1st floor living hall. the guest rooms and 2nd floor will just be decked with double rails and i'll find the curtains later.

J went to his calculator and guess how much it came out to be?

5 freaking thousand!!! for curtain rods/rails for the whole house and curtains at only 4 places and 2 venetian blinds at the kitchen... tergelak la kan sekejap..

aiyo J, auntie cannot afford 5k la.. i told him my budget is 2k for the whole house and it was quite hilarious to see his eyes BULGED out!!

so in the end we agreed to a compromise, and now i am in the market for cheap nice looking french-pleat curtains (since eyelets are blardy expensive)..

Week 17, Day 5

2011-02-11T18:51:00.000+08:00

Dearest Sayang,

happy 5th anniversary!!!

i love you.

Week 17, Day 3

2011-02-08T22:17:00.002+08:00

ppl, please la..

if u are sick or sok sek sok sek, please go to the doctor and get medicated or get an MC and go home!!!

it's not that i'm not sorry that u're already feeling miserable but you are not helping anyone by being in the office. you are not doing work properly and you are infectious!!!! sneezing and coughing at every blardy corner!

i do not want to get sick, so bugger off home!!!

Week 16, Day 2

2011-01-31T19:30:00.003+08:00

I am sooo lazy...

honestly, being preggers with your first child is very exciting and shocking and sometimes unreal.. though i am still coming into terms to the fact that i am responsible for another being's life and well-being for the next 6 months or so and going to share the responsibility thereafter, the miracle of creation still awes me..

i mean, i read about it, i heard about it, i saw it when my frens had theirs but when it happens to me i cant believe how miraculous it just is..

there's a baby in my body, growing.

how amazing is that? there were times when i can hardly take care of myself; couldnt care less if i had enough sleep or drink enough water or smoke how many packs already? now, i have to keep reminding myself that i have to eat healthy, drink that stupid yucky tasting water coz lil baby needs it, eat that humongous sized pills coz lil baby needs nutrients.. dont walk too fast, dont carry heavy stuff, dont wear highheels.. everything now revolves around the lil baby.. it's just amazing the change in priority just like that.

i am still amazed..

Week 15, Day 6

2011-01-29T10:46:00.003+08:00

come on, lets just face it..

i am so blardy lazy to keep posting on this blog.. especially now.. oh good god, i barely have enough energy to get through the 8 hour work schedule and i get home and i'm hungry ALL the time and by the time i'm full, i'll be dozing in front of the TV!!

i tell you, if the food doesnt get me FAT, my habits will. like seriously, sleeping after a big bunch of food every time is not funny..

my tummy is getting bigger and i still have to tell my family!!! oh no!!! sigh.. ok, this weekend, this weekend..

2011-01-15T16:37:00.004+08:00

i meant to write this on the day i found out about it but yes, of course, i was distracted.

so anyways, for those who have yet to know, i am preggers! hhehehehe!!! it was a really, really pleasant surprise for us. we were trying for two years almost and i was about ready to go opt for alternative procedure. and then one day, i went to guardians to get some stuff and i came across the ovulation kit. i brought one box of 5 home with me thinking, oh well, it cant hurt to try, can it?

at that time, i was already at my 17th day of my usual 28 day cycle. but i remembered when we used to scan my eggs, i was late at ovulating. one time, it was at day 16 and my egg was still not out.. so i thought, heh, lets just try and see.. so i did, and i tried.. and guess what, i got positive results at day 20 and 21! can u believe it??? i thought i was like the rest of you normal average people because my period is so predictable these past years, 28 days on the dot or the very least +/- 1 day.. all of the doctors that i went to see saw my egg at day 12 and assume i'm going to ovulate at day 14 or 15 max. even when we scanned at day 16 and it was late, it was attributed to stress etc and the doctor told me i'd be ovulating on the 17th or 18th day at the time because of the size of the egg (ready to mature/ovulate)..

so for the past year, we have been up to it from day 12 to 18 at least.. coz after that, i'd be all PMS-ing and snarly and in a DONT-TOUCH-ME while teeth bared mood.. so imagine my surprise to get positive sticks on the 20th and 21st day. and no, i was not in any way stressed that month.. so we went for it :)

and by the next month, i was late for 4-5 days i think for my next cycle. it was right after deepavali and i just felt it. i went to test and it was positive. i was speechless, really.. i went out to get more sticks and all 4 of them were positive.. it was the best day of our lives.

and now, i'm at my 13th week, going to my 14th tomorrow. my pregnancy is going OK. i cant say i'm having bad morning sickness but mild and all day woozy feeling.. it was OK. i am tired most of the time and still trying to adapt to my "new eating schedule". yes, eating schedule. i get hungry like every hour if i'm lucky. my baby bump is growing and so is my waistline. needless to say more than half of my wardrobe are non-usable at the moment (and hopefully can be used again later). i try not to get a whole new wardrobe for now coz i know it will not be usable, again, after the next month. sigh...

so, anyways, i have to stop now coz i need to eat something. notice the word NEED. suddenly i just need to eat, like there's an alarm in my head telling me "eat now". i dont even feel hungry now, but if i wait for another 10 minutes, my tummy will be rumbling like i havent eaten for days.. like really... and yes, there's the rumble.. so ciao bebs!!!

1.1.11

2011-01-01T16:27:00.000+08:00

ok, i know i have put this blog on private for the time being and i really mean for the time being.. there's a piece of news that i want to blog about but i just dont want it to be read for a while.

so, i guess by the time u guys get to read this, it'll be really really old news.. even this post is written later than when it was supposed to be written. somehow, i dont find sitting on the floor in front of the lappie as exciting as before..

anyways, happy new year peeps. sorry for the month delay or half-month delay to be more correct. i wish for the best for all of you. 2011 will be a big year for the tikus for sure.. hehehe.. BIG.. it's the year to re-prioritize the important things. so far for the past years we have lived for ourselves only, what we want, what pleased us.. now, we have to learn that the priority is no longer with us. it'll take quite a bit of adjustment but i'm sure we can handle it well.

so, again, happy new year and i actually cant wait to let this blog be public again.. :)

attention!

2010-12-04T21:17:00.001+08:00

This blog will go on a "private" mode for a while k. will be on again soon. :)

sakit hati tau!

2010-10-13T00:34:00.002+08:00

hehehhee...

2010-10-08T00:50:00.003+08:00

hehehe... i think i'm in love with the white one..

sayang said it looks like a brake-disc... eeeiihhh..

2010-10-08T00:42:00.002+08:00

oh, i forgot..

in my homedec post kat bawah tu, i actually wanted to tell you that eventhough the prices in homedec are amazing, we found this online electrical store that offer almost the same amazing price.

the difference may be about 50-100 bucks more, but u can get it all year round.

the bad thing is, the brands are a bit limited.

the address is http://jintexelectronics.com. i havent purchased anything yet but my brother (the kedekut one) swears by it.

so, just a note..

casual day friday

2010-10-08T00:39:00.002+08:00

tomorrow the Co will start its pilot implementation of "casual day friday"..

oh goody...

do u think u're giving us a treat with letting us wear casuals?

but in any case, how will this affect me? HAHA!

me, the casual day everyday..

2010-10-08T00:32:00.002+08:00

last weekend we went to Homedec.

at first, we thot of just going on saturday and get everything done in one day. but then i told hubby that that just wont cut it. we need ONE day to survey all 5 halls of homedec, that is if we survive all 5 halls, and then go home, decide on what to buy and return on sunday to seal the deal.

true enough, by the 3rd hall, i was ready to go home. oh good god, eventhough the crowd is not as big as the pc fair (which i've sworn to never ever go again) but this crowd is as trying. and the most trying thing is the fact that they bring their "whole kampung" including newborn babies in their baby strollers!!

i mean, come on! baby pun nak pilih dapur mana nak beli is it?? and while u're pushing the stroller tu, tgk lah sikit tolak kat mana, jangan dok gelek je kaki orang!

eeeiii!!

2010-10-03T04:01:00.003+08:00

i'm bored with my iphone. i didnt even know why i bought it. oh yeah, i forgot. i bought it coz i wanted the twinkle2 casing. sigh. do u know that i'm bored with the casing as well?

urrrggghh..

one of my colleague, who is a diehard nokia and got wind of my boredom, emailed me the 3 new nokias that are coming out this month; the n8, e7 and c-something. he'd already placed an order for the n8 despite the not so cheery review and while everyone else is queuing up for the iphone 4.

my eyes went wide at the sight of the e7. i waaaant...

and then i remembered all the lights, air-conds, fans, water-heaters and zillions other stuff, not to mention the furnitures, that we need to get for our new house.. and i whimpered..

2010-10-02T11:08:00.002+08:00

I saw them clearly today.

Wrinkles under my eyes.

Oh god...

lately, i have been obsessed with these stupid lines under my eyes. Yesterday i had a meeting with client's lawyer. i hoped she didnt noticed coz i kept looking at her face thinking how smooth her skin is [no, the tikus operating system is still the S version]. i wondered if my skin was ever that smooth when i was her age.

and then we went into discussion of PIPE, the Co's induction course for new execs and she was complaining that she'll be bored stiff there coz everyone wud be like high-school leavers. without thinking i asked how old she is.

her answer depressed me further.

she's older than me, i didnt quite remember how much older coz at that point of time i just wanted to pout and whimper.

i need to stop smoking *taking a huge drag and puff*

october

2010-10-01T21:20:00.002+08:00

i havent post for so long. the last full post was like in feb and now it's already october.

yes, ALREADY october..

funny how time moves so fast.. it's already the 10th month of the calendar year, 3 more months to go to december before i have to start thinking of new year resolutions, again. and six more months to go to the end of the cycle. crap.

it's also already the 10th year i'm in the Co. yes, ten blardy years.. jeez, where did the time go? what did i do in the past ten years? i remembered my job interview and i remembered i had plans. what happened?

i'm bored. i can feel the boredom making me restless, irritated. things, even smallest things get on my nerves with the speed of a rocket. nis once told me that we can choose what bothers us and ignore the rest.

nis, i'm a scorpio. being emotional is like only second to being alive.

but i guess she's right too. if you let everything bothers you, if you fight all the battles, when are you going to have energy for yourself and the ones you really care about?

take a deep breath, exhale, smile and just let it go.

sometimes, somethings are just not worth it.

2010-07-20T18:11:00.002+08:00

Its raining, its pouring.. Do i really have to go to the gym???

2010-07-20T18:05:00.002+08:00

The tikus has a secret guilty pleasure...

Oh god, what have i done... *heheheh*

2010-02-27T12:51:00.003+08:00

thing are moving at a fast rate but for once i really dont mind to just sit back and watch... the truth is i am tired..

2010-02-18T19:58:00.002+08:00

ok, the tikus will hv her condo empty come end of march. My darling tenants are mvg out to their newly (daddy-)purchased penthouse.

Yes, yes, am not only green with envy but sad like hell. They hv been the perfect tenants for the past 3 years.

So, if anybody is interested to rent a 3r2b condo at tiara ampang (at one of the lowrise) pls let me know.

2010-02-18T19:54:00.002+08:00

i think my nokia E71 will be on sale soon, like mebe in 2weeks.

It's abt a year old white color, excellent condition. Am using it for surfing, facebook, blogging and ofcourse calls and stuff ;P

I think it'll be RM800 negotiable.

2010-02-18T19:50:00.002+08:00

hey u mamat lembek, aku tau lah ko beli iphone. Tak payah lah nak cakap kuat2, gelak besar2, tayang2 iphone ko tu kat sini.

Bawak balik ghumah, install, cuba belajar macam mana nak guna and stop blardy irritating me, boleh tak?

3 more numbers to go.

2010-02-18T19:48:00.001+08:00

4 more to go...

Tic... Tic... Tic... Tic...

I can feel my ears ringing..

good god, why is dis taking so bloody long????

2010-02-18T19:41:00.002+08:00

i hv to admit that i have no patience at all for waiting - be it waiting for people, waiting for the washing machine or even waiting for food to be cooked. I cant stand it.

So sitting here at maxis klcc WAITING for my number to magically appear on the screen to get service is an excrutiating pain. A slow torturous wait while being surrounded with a bunch of pretentious loud-voice arrogant mamat lembek almost made me want to quit this place.

Sigh.

Almost...

2010-02-18T19:40:00.000+08:00

i'd almost forgotten why i so dislike you, thank you for reminding me.

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

2010-02-14T07:09:00.000+08:00

happy valentine's day people!!

and a special happy valentine's day to my sayang.
yes, yes, everyday i love you too but valentine's day is still special!! *grrr*

Cinta Sari Tradispa

2010-02-13T18:01:00.000+08:00

located at the commercial center after the horribly jammed intersection of jalan cempaka and jalan ampang is the cinta sari tradispa. every day, usually after work, stuck in the jam with nothing to do but twiddle my thumb and wait, i always wonder what is it and how was it. but it never cross my mind to actually stop by and try it out. mainly because after the wordings of "Cinta Sari", the next sentence is "Tempat Istirehat", all at the same sign board.

so, me being me, of course, i would think "Tempat Istirehat" must be nothing good. i dont want to accidently enter a "men's only tempat istirehat" and embarassed myself profusely. one day, quite accidently, while surfing through my facebook notification, i came across one notification that said that one of my friend is a fan of Cinta Sari Tradispa. curious, i clicked and "OHH!" came out of my mouth.

yes, people, it is actually an actual spa and even more wonderful, it's exclusively for women only.

more curious, i went googling for it.

yes, there is a webpage: Cinta Sari Tradispa. *isnt internet wonderful?* cintasari tradispa has full range of services from massages to scrubs to facials to mani&pedi to waxing to pre wedding packages and even post birth packages! interesting huh?

so guess what did the tikus do? ;P

i called and booked myself a Vanilla Mocha spa package and mani&pedi for early Saturday morning - yes, 1030am is early morning pour moi, ok! kononnya so that i would be nicely scrubbed and massaged for the special dinner that night. *grin*

from the outside, the spa itself is very unassuming. the location, though smack in ampang, is not very strategic as it is located in the worst area of traffic jam at jalan ampang. the entrance to the commercial center is very confusing and the parking doesnt look very easy. it took me quite a while to figure out how to enter the commercial center and i thank god that it's early sat morning that the parkings are still available.

the interior though, is quite tastefully decorated. u would not have noticed that it is actually a shop lot. there are quite a number of rooms and they are all nicely decorated - yes, i peeked -the facilities are clean and it smells heavenly, well, for the lack of better words. i was pleased.

my package began with a foot bath, then a massage, scrub and milk bath. one word of warning, there are no spa panties provided. yes, you are full monty :D i dont know whether u can request for one, maybe u could..

overall, the treatment was good. the massage was better than good, or rather my masseusse is excellent. the massage is mainly balinese traditional, i think, long strokes. however, i honestly felt that the scrub was not as thorough as it should have been but the scrub itself smelled so nice that it made me crave for one of those san fran coffee vanilla mocha ice blended drinks.. the milk bath was just OK, mainly because i dont like milk that much :) hehehe yes, i know, i should have chosen something with a flower bath instead..

the young ladies working there are friendly and helpful. i got from them that they are opening another branch in setapak sometime this month due to customers' requests. but they are not closing this one in ampang because they have significant existing ampang-based clients already.

sorry i have no pictures but u can go to their webpage and get everything u want to know from there. from a client's point of view, it's worth a try and could very well be your favorite spa. except for the location, what's not to like? the price is reasonable (excellent, in fact), the facilities are nice and the treatments are better than good. for me, for sure i will be going there again :)

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!

2010-02-11T15:46:00.000+08:00

happy 4th anniversary sayang..

Legion

2010-02-08T03:12:00.003+08:00

yes, despite maklongnye bedah's review, the tikus went to watch the Legion, sometime last last weekend.

actually, i was already ready to wait for the dvd, tak sampai hati to see hubby's face cringe or worse, out right snores in the cinema out of boredom.. but out of the blue, my sweet baby blue told me that he already reserved movie tix for us..

acho... tak sampei hati la kan nak bagi tau review dia macam kurang menarik..

but actually, i found it not quite bad..it was not good, but not that bad either.. ok, ok, like si ateen, i do have a thang for bettany ever since wimbledon.. shweeet..

and of course, sayang hated it. OMG!! it was so funny the way he described it.. it was not that it was boring, but it was just too warp-y for him.. the fate of mankind is dependent on a group of people in a god-knows-where truck-stop-diner with only an angel defending them? right... could have made it a town instead.. lolx!

Siam Body Works

2010-02-08T01:23:00.004+08:00

sayang has, apparently, another new hobby...

he loves, LOVES, going for a massage...

*sigh*

ever since our last hols - oh, forgot, i didnt post that huh? - where we, literally, woke up, sat at the beach, went to spa, lunched, sat at the beach, dinner-ed (yes, another NOT A WORD but do i look like i care?), slept and repeated all of the above for 5 days in a row - no, i kid u not - sayang has gotten fixated with massages... oh! dats y i didnt post the hols, there's actually NOTHING to post coz i was, well, half asleep for the 5 days we were there!! kah kah kah!!! it was actually the best 5 days of the whole year of 2009.. sigh... do we really have 10 more months to go???

anyways, yes, sayang just loves massages now..

so just now, or yesterday, after whimperings of "yaaaang, jom la gie massage" for the past two weeks, we went to try Siam Body Works at Ampwalk in Ampang.. i have no desire to go way across the country to hartamas and since i have no idea what spas are good in ampang, we just picked one out of the internet, and voila, Siam Body Works..

I have never tried thai massages before.. coz one thing i know FOR SURE, thai massages HURT like hell.. a good kind of hurt, one of my colleague used to say, but hey, i am not a masochist! err, did i spell that right? but since my neck and shoulders are all achy from the meetings, papers and presentations and OMGWTF other stuff that could literally give me a doctorate in MS office programs, i relented and braved myself for this good kind of hurt..

the outlet - sorry, but i cant really call it a spa coz i equate spas with a place of sanctuary for women - is small, on the 1st floor of Ampwalk. the receiving area is simple with a small set of sofa in front of the cashier and small area for you to browse stuff (oils, chinese teas) to buy. we were brought through the door to the massage area where unbelievably is about the same concept as Zen Soul!!

the rooms are not rooms but small cubicle-like areas with curtains separating each massage area. and of course, again, the mattress is on the floor. oh no, i feel a cringe at my neck. but if i were to be objective - and put my need for creature comfort aside - this is actually an excellent economical model of facility layout - yes, this is the industrial engineer speaking - and operational model. emm...

anyways, the treatment. there are not that many choices of treatment, just a couple choices of massages and reflexology. if u're looking for scrubs, bath or mani pedi, definitely not here.. for us, i chose the aromatheraphy massage and sayang went for the thai traditional massage. the experience? oh dear god.. the good part of the good kind of hurt better be damn good tomorrow coz i'm still hurting now!! lolx! but to be seriouly frank, it does hurt, especially if ur shoulder knots are like ours, huge and extremely knotty! the masseurs will not hesitate to use her entire arm especially elbows to squish those knots into oblivion IRREGARDLESS of how much u squealed.. at least my treatment came with oil that i thot lessen the pain quite a bit. sayang's treatment is sans oil!! he told me he felt like he's being pinched and elbowed and squished and twisted!! HAHAHAH!!!

but after all that, we do feel a bit looser and achingly good - if ever there's such a description.

i would recommend this if u're really stressed or have sports knots - there's a special massage for golfers!!.. if u're like me, where massages are supposed to be pampering and relaxing with soothy songs and sweet smells, this is definitely not for you!

would i go again? i think so.. yes..

2010-01-24T18:56:00.003+08:00

i'm so P.O.ed today..

hubby took me to out today to get curling iron in an effort to cheer me up - yes, otherwise i'll still be one smelly tikus.. i have one already but i loaned that one to nis and since at that time my hair was horribly, irritatingly damaged and at a ridiculous length that i couldnt do anything with it, i told her she could keep it. yes, it would serve her oh-so-gorgeous hair better than mine...

*sulk while swearing that i wouldnt subject my hair to anymore chemicals*

lately though, i'm itching to do something with my hair.. someone, once upon a time ago, suggested to me that maybe i change my hair a lot has something to do with a subconscious need to change something else but i couldnt and so that need transfered to changing my hair.

i told him to FUCK OFF.

if there are any subconscious needs that are still smoldering inside me that i have yet to fulfill, they do not translate to my hair.

i have one so very conscious hair problem since before i hit puberty: i hate my hair. and if u're my ex-primary schoolmate or my ex-boarding schoolmate, you would know. i have horrible hair, well, at least until i met rebonding. LOLX! yes, yes, gag y dont u..

so anyways, since my hair is bordering recovery already *another 4 inches of damaged ends to go*, i'm itching to do something to it. i made appt to do this one process called cosmy or smtg but i cancelled it last minute because yes, chemicals. i cant color it, i cant cut it even shorter. so i wanted to curl it and hubby offered to get a new curling iron for me.

so off we went this afternoon to get one. then we stopped by mcdonald's for its fries for snacks, to guardians for toilettries and back to the car to go home.

tikus: sayang, where's the plastic that has my curlers??

sayang: not with me..

tikus: oh shit! i left it at mcdonald's!!!

so the tikus ran back to mcdonald's and lo and behold the orange plastic bag that held her newly purchased VS ceramic curling iron is not there any longer.

BLARDYVOSTOK!!!

i asked the cleaners there and that farking amah was so rude, not helpful and dismissive *may u be hit by a bus*. i went to the counter, asked for the manager to make an incident report and also to leave my details so that if anyone found it they can contact me. this one cibai lady named faridah *may you be hit by a truck* who's the asst manager was so fucking rude gave me a scrap paper to write on and left me there and disappeared.

one, i was so upset my stuff is gone and most definitely stolen [baru beli k!!!], and second, i was so angry at how, not only unhelpful but RUDE these people are. it's like they are trained to be polite at one thing only "hi, having here or to go?", for other things, u can fuck off.

i was going to make a fuss or more aptly go to war but hubby, my oh-so-very-patient husband told me to just forget it and lets get another one.

huh?? HUH?? ala... dah lah aku rasa bersalah sebab hilangkan barang yang dia baru belikan tak sampai sejam pun, lepas tu dia nak belikan lagi satu???

alaaaaa.... nak marah orang pun dah tak de mood..

2010-01-23T23:42:00.002+08:00

the tikus is sleeping early tonite, mostly because her tummy is still pounding, though a bit numb-ly [if there's ever such a word - oh, do u know that "irregardless" is actually NOT a real word?? i just knew k!!], from my pill-popping episode this afternoon..

i actually planned to do A LOT of freaking things today including watch the legion tonite. but of course, i spent my time curling with blankie, licking peanut butter and jelly from a spoon - yes, gross, i know but HEY! P-M-S!!! - and "fight" people in FB.. that was actually soothing, except for the fact that i still dont have a freaking bangkok passport to play in bangkok!!!

dang..

ok, where was i? oh, yeah, sleeping early.

well, good nite peeps!!

2010-01-23T13:15:00.002+08:00

the tikus is not feeling well today..

why?

its the time of the FARKING month, dats FARKING why. yes, pls dont pardon my french, i do intend to swear, A LOT in this post, today and for the next 7-9 days..

uurrrrgghh..

it's not just the pain that's frustrating, it's the FARKING irritating and sooo irritable mood, the strangest need to eat all the BLARDY chocolate in the whole wide world and of course, the OMGWTF mother of all zits on the face!!

i mean, COME ON!!

2010-01-23T01:21:00.002+08:00

there are some things in life that you just have to face alone, without help from anyone, not your family, friends or even your dearest partner..

and sometimes, you just feel like screaming out loud and for the tikus, most likely, crawl into her blankie, close her eyes and postpone facing whatever she has to face just a little while longer..

well, she can hope..

2010-01-17T13:04:00.002+08:00

oh no..

hubby has a new hobby lately.. well, actually, it's an old hobby revived. i bought him a mountain bike for his bday last dec since his old one was stolen back in zurich [yes, i know, theft in zurich? strange, right?]

anyways, this morning, he went for a bike ride with another friend on a trail at the local forest research institute compound. and me, of course me the CITYkoos stayed at home with all my creature comforts - and smelly blankie and nice aircond - than trying to venture anywhere near a forest. and then, when i woke up, i saw his sms..

"sayang! next time u have to come! ramai orang k.. nanti i go buy u ur bike"

errr...

right....

Fact 1: i have no idea how to ride a mountain bike. no, rpm classes at the gym do not count.

Fact 2: track in the forest??? oh god, save me..

The Blind Side

2010-01-17T07:19:00.003+08:00

i watched this movie a couple of days back. it was probably the best sandra bullock movie that i've ever watched and the one that moved me the most.

at first i thot the story is too good to be true, like some kind of a feel good movie.

and then i found out that it's a true story.

it's just amazing.

14 sticks to Day 1

2010-01-17T03:57:00.003+08:00

today, the carton on the shelve of my cabinet is empty. i have opened the last remaining box - and of course currently chimney-ing my way through this post..

why is this important?

coz i told myself when that particular carton is empty, i will not buy another, box or carton or stick.

and honestly, i'm terrified like hell. that feeling when u saw ur last box and kept thinking whether the sticks are enough to get u through until u hv the time to get another or two boxes or better yet, lets get the whole carton. yes, that feeling, multiply it by maybe a million..

and the questions in my head now - what will i do without my ciggies? how would i forego stress? how would i get pass my mental blocks?? - are killing me.

i dont know whether i can do this or not but i'm not one who'll quit without trying.. or in this case, who'll try to quit??

HAHA, buat kelakar la pulak..

Zen Soul

2010-01-16T23:21:00.002+08:00

we went to Zen Soul this afternoon for a little massage.

Zen Soul is a small spa in sri hartamas, yes, that alien planet and thank god for GPS [HAHAHA!] it was introduced to us by one of our friends and we wanted to try it out since the price is not that bad. an hour massage is from 65-75 depending on the kind of massage that you choose.

the spa is on the 1st floor in a row of shophouses near karma. the setting is quite simple but unique. unigue because the massage rooms are not really rooms. imagine a wide floor space being divided by wall partitions to make "cubicle-like" massage rooms with heavy curtains instead of doors. and for the first time in my life, the massage err bed(?) is on the floor with actual mattress and pillow.kinda funny and uncomfortable a little bit coz your head will be turned either to the left or right to avoid being smothered by the pillow! but everything was done tastefully with laminated flooring and romantic lighting. the only thing bad about the configuration is that we could hear our neighbours quite clearly!

we chose the aromatheraphy massage which is actually a mixture of malay, balinese and swedish massage. as a whole, i would have to say that it was quite nice but a teeny bit painful! HAHAHA! i always go for aromatheraphy for my first time in any new spas to test the masseurs because it's always the most relaxing and soothing and NOT PAINFUL!! but apparently not here. i was quite disappointed with my masseur coz i think she's a bit lazy. even sayang thot so too coz we actually faced each other [ye lah, heads have to be turned to one side kan?] and he could see that my masseur macam buat cincai.. and no, i did not complain, yes, i did wonder why since i am the master complainer..

all in all, it was ok. on a scale of 10, i would probably give it a 6 mostly because the price is fabulous and it was quite easy to get to [despite being at an alien planet]. would i go there again? emmm.. ok, maybe. but just for the massage [definitely not the aromatheraphy] or the mani pedi and not for the lulur coz the shower is at the back of the receptionist, meaning that you will have to cross the sitting / waiting area to go shower. like, eeiik, no thank you.

15 days later..

2010-01-15T01:21:00.001+08:00

i just noticed that i havent written anything this year in this blog.

not even "happy new year".. sigh..

last year i thot i would write everyday and i would have at least 365 posts for the year 2009. it was a couple of hundred short :) i blame it on the internet connection, the job and most of all, i blame it on the little addictive games in facebook. yes, i have to admit that. my lappie, for the past months, has become the instrument of "destruction" HAHAHA!

anyways,

this year, honestly, i have no new year resolution, well, it's kinda like 15 days too late to make any huh.. but looking back to last year, i would like to have some minor life improvements this year. i wont call it resolution coz then i'll just forget about it coz hey, there's always the next year's resolution, right? so calling it life improvements seem a bit more lasting and hopefully permanent.

to all my frens out there, happy new year, may God bless you and may you have the best days and years ahead of you.

and for some frens whom i just heard, or more correctly, read, whom are hvg trials in their lives, i pray for the best for you. be strong.

the NEW movie i just have to MOON about..

2009-12-08T21:21:00.004+08:00

ok, i have to admit it, i actually liked the new moon..

ok, ok, more than like..

definitely a whole lot more than the 1st installment..

**sigh**

**drooled**

i mean, COME ON, who would not fall in lurve with this.. this.. kid.. can i even call him a kid?

damn! i even went to buy the DVD copy k!

and i'm sorry maknye bedah, but please, he wins hands down against mr. edward gorgeously-powder-puffed cullen..

and oh yeah, the story's nice too.. HAHA!

2009-11-22T18:02:00.002+08:00

parking in KLCC is can be an art or a disaster.

i was on my way to my car just now when this one family was walking here and there trying to figure out where did their father park the car, all the while grumbling.

i dont blame them. it is very confusing especially if its your first time down there. it took me a year to be familiar with the underground parking at KLCC and another year to literally memorize where everything is situated.

not to mention the 6am incident where we were literally "lost" in the carpark. yes, i hate to tell you that the carpark is pretty err scary. that time, my colleague and i were finishing a paper and we were finally done at 6am. yes, 6am and thank god nothing said hello to us in the office during the late night and early morning.

but when we were trying to leave the carpark, we cant find the exit. like we literally cant see any exits. thank god my colleague is the logical and not-panicky type [i was already ready to scream]. he drove around the carpark what must have been three or four times until we saw a security guard and he led us to the exit, which surprisingly was not far from where we parked [and yes, we didnt see it].

so if you are down there at KLCC carpark and cant find your car, dont panic, look for the many security guards who either ambled around or riding around on yellow kapcai's. they will either bring u to the office while they radio their colleagues to look for your car or they will carry u on their kapcai's to look for your car with you. yes, i have seen them do that. cool huh?

2009-11-22T17:44:00.002+08:00

i'd always taken for granted that the building where i'm working at is one [or used to be one] of the famous buildings in the world.

sometimes, it boggled my mind why, WHY, do people want to take pictures of the building, why they gawked at the lobby of the office, tried to enter the air-gate valiantly eventhough the polis bantuan had told them that this is not the place to visit the Towers.

and most of the times, it irritated me that i have to struggle through swarms and swarms of [sometime SMELLY] tourists flocking in groups, following the flag-bearing-man, just to get lunch. not to mention those little school monsters err kids who screamed and rushed everywhere even though their teachers told them to stay in the line.

and then i remembered that oh, this is the Twin Towers, and if i'm not mistaken still the tallest twin towers in the world. and then i smiled.

oh well...

2009-11-21T11:31:00.002+08:00

i wonder if the ants in my kitchen can either (1) fly, or (2) swim.

like, seriously..

i placed my water jug on a tray and i filled water on the tray so that normal semuts wont be able to commit suicide in my water.

but nooo...

THEY ARE STILL TWO OR THREE ANTS IN THE WATER!!!

and this is not a one time occurence k. i've found them in there more than three times already.

now tell me HOW in the world could they cross the pool of water in the tray into the jug??

pls do tell me how.

2009-11-21T05:07:00.003+08:00

i have to lose at least 5kgs by 21st december 2009.

no, it's not because it's sayang's bday HAHA! well, mebe but not actually.

we are going for our annual beach holli end of the year and i want my bikini photos to be damn hot!

kah kah kah!

yes, puke y dont u..

of course i have passed the age and even the mental determination to lose more than what i need, i'll be satisfied if i can atleast look decent in a bikini.. my photos from our short trip to kuantan last month were enuf to give me nightmares.

yes, yes, over, i know..

new moon

2009-11-21T04:42:00.002+08:00

and here we go again..

i have no idea when this will come out in msia.. i think ard 26th or something, am not sure.

but what i can be sure is the cinemas will be packed with edward-powderpuff-cullen adoring fans..

tolong lah, just dont let me sit next to extra-ordinarily-adoring girls who drool and sigh and oohs and aahs every blardy time he appears at the screen.

the last time i had to endure girls ooh-ing over mr-powderpuff literally NON-STOP, ok.. and oh, it was such a HUGE ooooooh when they kissed..

oh god, save me..

2009-11-21T03:58:00.003+08:00

we went to see 2012 when it came out on yours-truly's bday.

yes, i was sick like a dog that day but i dragged myself out nevertheless... and honestly, i should have just waited for the DVD...

oh god.. in my frankiest opinion the blardy yapping dog should have been left in vegas in the first place! yes, of all the supposedly mighty scenes in the movie i had to remember the dog.

sigh..

2009-11-21T03:41:00.003+08:00

my mom and my brother are going through a "rough patch" with each other at the moment.

frankly, i dont understand why it started in the first place.. the only logical answer was that she's getting more emo lately, which unfortunately was an unlogical condition to be an answer for my brother.

and then, i dont understand why is it so difficult for him to just say sorry and try to appease her, irregardless of the who's-fault or the why's. fact 1: she's your mother.

but, oh yeah, he's exactly like my dad.

and for the first time in my 30+ years, i had to be in the middle. mainly because my dad is missing his one and only GRANDdaughter - yes, strangely, i am not sad LOL! - and since my mom is in a tiff with my bro, she refused to visit his house and he refused to go back to melaka. and that left my dad with video-calls to his granddaughter which he has to do it in secret.

quite hilarious actually.

2009-11-08T22:46:00.004+08:00

it was just a minor fender-bender that could happen to anyone but then the engine bay caught on fire and spread through the car.

i thank god that he, his wife and kid are safe and unhurt.

2009-11-06T23:44:00.000+08:00

again, november is supposed to be a great farking month!!!! *pull hair*

2009-11-04T22:38:00.000+08:00

november is supposed to be a lovely, peaceful month!!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-04T22:35:00.002+08:00

how would you feel if someone ignored and short of mocked your idea weeks before and suddenly proposed to you your own idea like they thought of it in the first place?

what, u think i have amnesia isit that i cant remember?

or mebe u have amnesia that u dont remember.

2009-11-03T19:03:00.002+08:00

oh dang, i'm stressed now.

i received a call from my hsg loan lawyer just now and she requested my help to follow up with my SNP lawyer to get all the required documentations.

i swear to god i can feel my blood pressure rose.

do u know when i initiated the purchase?

last three months?

last six?

no, try last NOVEMBER!

YES, one blardy year and it's still not completed yet. *breathe in*breathe out*

MAJOR MISTAKE NOT TO REPEAT THE NEXT TIME I'M CRAZY ENOUGH TO BUY ANOTHER HOUSE: DO NOT ENGAGE RELATIVE'S LAWYER FIRM.

FUCKING BLOODY ASSHOLES!!!

2009-11-03T18:29:00.000+08:00

proving a point has never been so sweet.

"waiting for network"

2009-11-03T18:25:00.000+08:00

urrrggghh...

dont u just hate that message.

2009-11-01T23:27:00.002+08:00

tomorrow i have to point to make.

maybe they care, maybe they wont.

of books and their videos

2009-11-01T04:36:00.003+08:00

the first time i came across "video" of books was when i found christine feehan. she just love making videos of her books as teasers to her readers.

i hated it.

yes, the idea of it is brilliant, but to me books are where your imagination runs high and free, where u fantasized about the tall, dark handsome dudes - err, pls dont tell hubby this k ;P

and that's exactly why i hated these videos.

coz the actors and actresses are probably from C-budget movies and they totally potong stim k! i kid u not. if u read christine feehan and love her books, go to her website and watch the videos. i guarantee u that ur tall-dark-and-handsome-fantasy will go down the drain.

its like going to karaoke lounge for the first time and u choose ur all time favorite love songs that u jiwang with when u were a teenage bopper and then up on the screen are these two kelakar looking couples who ran around like they are in a hindustan movie.

yes, exactly dat feeling.

2009-11-01T04:09:00.003+08:00

ok, i cant sleep, thanx to waking up at 5 freaking PM just now.. and since all my "cafe food" are still on the stove and i have no "mafia energy" to do more jobs, so what can the tikus do? blog.. HAHA

i wud have thot i could sleep soundly tonite with all the aches from our sorry bout at the driving range, but no. and yes, body still ache like crazy.

golf sucks.

well, bad golf does. it felt good when u hit it right but most of the time? NA-AH..

and i feel really bad for sayang..

OHMYGOD! if there was ever a "stiffer" man around, pun not intended.. kesian gila! he was so frustrated i thot he was going to throw his clubs into the range.

that was quite funny actually ;P

2009-10-30T23:02:00.002+08:00

si tikus: dont u have like 3 papers to prepare next week, plus one stupid nego to do?

brain: sorry, hibernating mode

si tikus: huh?

2009-10-30T22:59:00.003+08:00

i have been told be more tactful.

what do u mean by tactful?

if tactful is how u behave, letting them trample all over you during mtgs, retreat, be silent and go at it again and again, then i think i'd stick to mine.

i cant stand ur long winded way.

i'd rather be direct and straight to the point. and if they raise their voice, u can bet ur ass i'd raise mine back at them.

let's face it, that's the only way they'd understand.

2009-10-30T22:58:00.001+08:00

i really hate u and ur farking superiority complex.

and i thot i wud not have to deal with it after leaving your farking country.

u're in mine now.

and here, u're the bug.

Book Watch!

2009-10-29T23:41:00.003+08:00

the things that i cant wait to arrive in 2010! can anyone make the time goes faster, pls...

1. Archangel's Kiss by Nalini Singh

To be released: Feb 2010

and the guild hunter becomes an angel..

2. Lion's Heat by Lora Leigh

To be released: April 2010

Books

2009-10-29T22:10:00.004+08:00

for the past months that i kinda "forgot" to update my blog, these are some of the new books that i've read..

1. COVET by JR Ward

did u know she was going to write a new set of stories? no? yup, neither did i.. but after reading it, i have to say that it was a dang disappointment. oh god, i fell asleep like twice before i finished reading it. TWICE. never in my lifetime of reading fav authors' books that i slept twice before finishing their book!

2. Mastered by Love by Stephanie Laurens

what else would i say about steph laurens' books? stunning as always. of course, this one was very much anticipated that the rest, it's dalziel's story. if only ms.SL would get off from her tendency for that long winded prose.. but hey..

3. Tempt Me at Twilight by Lisa Kleypas

mebe i'm quite jaded already but i really dont think a guy can get so fixated over a girl after seeing her only twice without any substantial interaction, let alone madly in love. this one, for me, is actually a very very weird story. for those who've read this, what do u think?

2009-10-29T21:25:00.002+08:00

little evil games on facebook!

come on, hands up for u who play these evil games!!

my god, i dont want to admit that am obsessed but i do. not enuf of being obsessed with planting stupid plants and waiting by the clock when i can harvest them, i have to be obsessed about killing people! well, not physically that is.

and then now, cafe world. oh god, yes, cafe world. i have no idea how it works but all i know i have to serve burgers and chips [coz that's all i can afford now] and rearrange chairs and tables for people to fit..

they all started quite innocently. i bring work back home and so does sayang. and usually, i have to have the tv on to keep things humming and yes, for those times when my brain is having a mental block but sayang cant concentrate when the tv is on.

so i have to have other distractions when my brain froze, and that's when i started playing these games.

and look what happened...

i swear to god i'll delete my FB account if i cant stop being obsessed!! i can hardly do work now! all i want to do now is check whether or not my burgers are cooked or whether i have points to keep fighting with people.

oh damn, it's 930 already, i think my burgers are ready!

KAH KAH KAH!!!

2009-10-29T20:50:00.003+08:00

the buzz of the year, the 1malaysia f1 team..

i tried to refrain from commenting much on this but i cant.

my take on the 1mf1? blardy waste of money. do they even know how much they'll have to spend? and i hated it when they put the Co on the spot like that. what, u think we're just one pot of gold that has an automatic refill is it?

and on the other side, its sayang's passion, well, besides me that is! HAHAHHAHA - yes, puke y dont u. of course people have been asking whether sayang has applied. my usual answer: one shrug and one smile.

well, he did apply, but he did it too late, passed the freaking due date.

and i felt guilty about that.

tell me, who wants to be an F1 widow? its bad enough that he has to travel on projects [yes, of course i travel too but no more than a week and its different! :P] it's gonna be horrible if he's really on the team. on one hand, i'm sad he's disappointed but on the other hand, i'm freaking happy...

and yes, i'm feeling guilty for feeling that.

2009-10-29T20:36:00.002+08:00

damn!

what is wrong with HR these days?? we have to fill in what?? PDP? personal develop plan?

tell me if this make sense, i have to spend more than 8hrs just to go into the freaking unrealiable system, pray to god that the server doesnt crash or i'll have to do everything again, fill in freaking details of which YOU should have being the HR and all, tell you what my career aspiration is which should be the same as in the PPA system that we have to fill in every 6 months, and i have to update my resume and upload it in the system.

for what?

why would u need all the information (almost of it you can find in some other blardy brilliant system you've forced down our throat in the past years) for? to track my career? help my development plan?

or is it some blardy initiative without any benefit to the masses but you??

ok, lets play it by the book, yes? all tasks have to have RICE to be worthy of your time in the office.

Tell me what Result i should expect out of doing this? what? how will it blardy help me?

Tell me what Impact doing this would help me? the company?

oh, and dont bother with the C and E, i can easily tell you what the challenges and effort are to do this blardy thing.

and so, why should i spend any minute of my time doing something i dont see the benefit?

oh yeah, because HR said so.

of course, how can i forget.

2009-10-18T22:49:00.002+08:00

oh great, it's october already..

another half year ppa cycle to write and a "momentous" decision to make.

jeez, i do hate making decisions and even worse, i hate writing ppa, half year or end of the year.

the new policy is not helping. force-ranking sucks. i'm due for transfer and when i do the probability of me being placed on the 10% is high. yes, who'd be the best target to screw err target than the new staff if you really have to force-rank someone.

plus, i hate transfers. it's like moving into a new high-school.

but i suppose i have to do it. jeez, ironic, when i want to leave, i didnt and when i actually dont want to leave and happy at my place, i have to.

sucks.

2009-09-03T19:03:00.002+08:00

yes ppl, i'm in the process of letting my suzie go..

i'm so tempted to just let her be traded in but since i've had so much fun with her, i'd rather she goes to someone who'll really appreciate her, hopefully an aspiring swifter :D rather than sit at a car dealer somewhere, sulking, not knowing where she is and y she's left there...

ok, psychotically-emo, i know but hey..

shit, now am sad..

2005 CBU Swift for sale

2009-09-03T18:52:00.003+08:00

1. Year: 2005
2. Color: Silver
3. Mileage: 57k (second car)
4. Others: black leather seat, armor tinted (newly installed, warranty 25 years), accident free, fully maintained by TR Mulia (every 6mths eventhough mileage is not 10k), everything else stock standard.
5. Reason for sale: replacing her with an SUV
6. Asking price: RM55k

2009-08-29T22:39:00.002+08:00

dang! i am lazy to blog these days..

not that there's not much stuff going on, i do indeed have at least a thing or two or at least a dozen to write but i just cant the blardy time to sit and write at the lappie.

ok, excuses, i know ;P

oh well, we are off for a night out now.. mebe later k peeps!

2009-08-15T01:03:00.001+08:00

lil pink shoes that made me cry...

2009-08-13T16:47:00.005+08:00

i can feel that today will not be a good day.

1: my boss will not be in the mtg today and i am honestly worried that i may lose my freaking temper and snapped at stupid freaking people, or person whichever the case may be..

2: the weather is so not helping. i mean, COME ON! do u want to be warm or chilly today, london?? MAKE UP YOUR FREAKING MIND! an hour of gloomy, an hour of sunny, another hour of chilly wind, another hour of rain, and then sun again, and then chill. what, pms-ing isit??

3: and stop talking about how bad swine flu is in malaysia because we, in a freak of nature, decide to declare openly our statistics. we know it's worse in ur freaking country. u just dont want to admit it!! if u did, ur freaking stupid economy will be already be way more than 6 feet under and then u'd really be living off rations.

4: although it may be [a bit] true, i always hated it when people compare the "courteous-ness" [yes, i have a headache so mind my english pls] of malaysians against mat salleh's and how we are lacking. pergi lah, try and LIVE there and see how really courteous they can be. kalau setakat duduk dua tiga hari for vacation or business trip, jangan cakap banyak ah.

5: i am missing my hubby.

2009-08-13T16:45:00.001+08:00

oh please lah, stop annoying me.

got books?

2009-08-11T03:02:00.003+08:00

who wants bengal's heart by lora leigh, mastered by love by stephanie laurens, burn by linda howard, bad moon rising by sherrilyn kenyon and storm of visions by christine feehan?

i havent had the time to post about them but kalau korang nak the ebooks, email la k..

2009-08-11T02:49:00.002+08:00

right, we have such plans to take leave and smoochy2 at the beach but of course we have to be at two different different places at the same week, all in the name of the Co... yes, high drive and resilience.. of course..

but at least sayang is somewhere warm and at least near a beach, i am blardy cold here! like hallo? isnt august supposed to = SUMMER = 27+ degrees?? celcius that is, not some blardy 20 degrees!!

anyways, i think this should be my last [free] trip here - hehehe - since the project is supposed to end this mth.

YES!! no more blah people to deal with..

now, when can we re-schedule that beach trip?

and here we go again..

2009-08-02T22:18:00.003+08:00

ok, so i know i havent updated my blog lately... BAGI CAN LA!! laki baru balik msia dua minggu k.. hehehe.. too bad coz the second day he came back i got my period! HAHAHAH! kesian pakcik.. dats y la got lag one week of incommunicado.. ok, too much info, SORRY! ;P

anyways, i am getting a presssie! *sengeh sampai nampak gusi*

the thing is, i have to choose my present... and the choosing part is a PAIN in the arse!

tak boleh just bagi je ke? at least i dont have to make a decision. u know i hate making decisions. u know i will psychotically-OCD-ly analyze everything, every single point.. i cant just drive through cheras auto city and pick one! what, ingat donut ke? come to think of it, nak choose donut pun i'm quite picky. well, except for JCo alcapone.. hehehe..

oh, why i'm getting a pressie? hehehe.. our house deal is almost coming through and i'll be getting the prof!!! yea! sayang laki aku...

now i have to think how to pay the monthly payment la kan.. HAHAHAHAH! so not funny...

emm...

but then again, if i choose another scenario that i'm not selfish then mebe we can get the walk-in wardrobe for the new house and a spanking huge-ass fridge and that 50-blardy-inch hd tv.. and electronic gate.. ok, mebe tak cukup for the electronic gate.. kah kah kah...

oh god.. lagi mau buat kelakar..

2009-07-21T20:15:00.002+08:00

i think there should be a law that says under no circumstances should any women under the influence of PMS be allowed out of their homes [and beds, if necessary] to avoid any sort of stupid disaster.

in just one day, i think i must have irritated, snarled and almost yelled at at least half of the population of KL, just because.

and the latest, stupidest incident happened over buying t-shirt pagoda for sayang.. i cant believe i got angry at the cashier for not giving me discount on t-shirt pagoda.. OH MY GOD. who ask for discount on pagoda t-shirts anyways?

kementerian kesihatan should definitely be issuing a new quarantine order.

Swearing Makes Pain More Tolerable

2009-07-13T22:06:00.002+08:00

really?? HAHA! guess my new year's resolution next year can omit this one.. LOL!

Swearing Makes Pain More Tolerable
By LiveScience Staff
posted: 12 July 2009 10:05 am ET

That muttered curse word that reflexively comes out when you stub your toe could actually make it easier to bear the throbbing pain, a new study suggests.

Swearing is a common response to pain, but no previous research has connected the uttering of an expletive to the actual physical experience of pain.

"Swearing has been around for centuries and is an almost universal human linguistic phenomenon," said Richard Stephens of Keele University in England and one of the authors of the new study. "It taps into emotional brain centers and appears to arise in the right brain, whereas most language production occurs in the left cerebral hemisphere of the brain."

Stephens and his fellow Keele researchers John Atkins and Andrew Kingston sought to test how swearing would affect an individual's tolerance to pain. Because swearing often has an exaggerating effect that can overstate the severity of pain, the team thought that swearing would lessen a person's tolerance.

As it turned out, the opposite seems to be true.

The researchers enlisted 64 undergraduate volunteers and had them submerge their hand in a tub of ice water for as long as possible while repeating a swear word of their choice. The experiment was then repeated with the volunteer repeating a more common word that they would use to describe a table.

Contrary to what the researcher expected, the volunteers kept their hands submerged longer while repeating the swear word.

The researchers think that the increase in pain tolerance occurs because swearing triggers the body's natural "fight-or-flight" response. Stephens and his colleagues suggest that swearing may increase aggression (seen in accelerated heart rates), which downplays weakness to appear stronger or more macho.

"Our research shows one potential reason why swearing developed and why it persists," Stephens said.

The results of the study are detailed in the Aug. 5 issue of the journal NeuroReport