Is it strange that i still whatsapp him every now and then? I guessed since that is the only medium of communication that existed between us, I just refused to let go. Yes, our relationship was complex and it was something that I cant explain and even if I can, I don't think I'd ever would care to explain to others.
I envy those who do have the most normal way of expressing their feelings to their fathers. I wanted things to be different. but I guessed our time has long gone.
I am sorry for not making the effort.
I am sorry for thinking we have time.
I am just sorry.