Thursday, March 24, 2005

"Make do Women"

Lady Author Unknown

** When my friend was preparing to get married, she started getting all sorts of advice especially at bridal showers and things like that from family and friends. But one of the most interesting "lessons" came from a woman we met for the first time, just a few weeks before her big day. She said, "Honey, whatever you do, don't ever let yourself become a "make-do" woman" I had no idea what she meant, but, of course, she was about to explain.

She continued, "men" don't deny themselves anything. Whatever they want to buy, they buy. Whatever they want to do, they do. Meanwhile, there is the wife, making do with her hair not being done, her clothes from yesteryear, her nails in need, never had a pedicure, scraping the bottom of her tube of lipstick! Oh, I could go on and on with how "we" make do.

And why? Because the car needs fixing, this bill is behind, we have to use our time to take care of this, or take care of that; we're saving for this, working, cooking, cleaning, raising, etc." She warned me to never become a make-do woman, because she says if you start, it is hard to stop and one could easily find themselves making-do for the rest of their lives.
I vowed it would never happen to me. I didn't think much more of the conversation until one day, I began to take notice, she was right. Men are a lot better at being good to themselves. Some call it being selfish, there has to be another word for it. Tell me if you know. Whatever you call it. It does have it's place. When they want to play ball, or golf, or fish, they go! When they want to buy clothes, or equipment, or video games, or whatever their "thing" is, they buy! Have you ever tried to stop one? Has anyone ever been able to stop one? Let me know! When I look around, I see a whole heap of make-do women, married or not, with or without children, they are all over the place!

I have decided that I am going to make my best effort to become a "make-time" woman! I will make the time to do what I need to do to be good to myself, whether that's a trip to the salon, or the gym or the mall. This time I'm gonna take a lesson from the guys! **

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

nodding off

i had lunch with the ladies just now.. had rojak buah and nescafe ais.. nice, i have been craving for the rojak buah for ages..

now, of all the sudden, i am soo sleepy.. i'm practically nodding off in front of the computer!!


long weekend vacation

sayang and i will be going for a long weekend vacation tomorrow.. am sooo excited!

last nite, taking lin’s advice, we went to stock up some food from Giants.. cans of drinks, instant coffee, chips, pringles, chipsmore (yea!), oranges and maggi in my mug (just in case we wanna have late nite snack).. and then, sayang saw crunchy peanut butter and immediately grabbed it... hehe.. now i guess we have to go and get some bread coz sayang wants to bring crunchy peanut butter sandwiches to the beach.. emm.. yum yum.. for that matter, i oso grabbed the stripy peanut butter..

so now, we have a carry-on luggage FULL of food!! hahaha.. it was so funny coz we havent packed any clothes yet, and we already have a full carry-on luggage.. then, we went to my apartment to get my stuff aka more clothes, matching shoes and sandals, bag, bikinis, pareo, sunglasses, tiny lil thingies and the bottle of wine we kept from last year's visit to Avillion.. sayang blinked at the amount of stuff i brought from my apartment, i took a pity on him and told him i dont intend to bring ALL of them, i just wanted them at sayang's place so that i'll have a fair amount of choices when we do the final packing.. and i can see sayang sighed visibily..

we'll probably leave tomorrow morning after breakfast, just in case we want to do "lil or big business".. neither of us has experience journey to the east coast so we cant gage how far betweens are the rest areas.. oh, have to remember to get Terengganu's map.. we plan to drive to KT to look for batik.. i wonder if KT would even have a proper city map..

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

it has been a year

thank you sayang for a wonderful year..
and for the years to come..

i love u

Monday, March 21, 2005

housemate from hell

i think i am cursed with housemates from hell..

first, it was the girl who left dirty dishes in the sink for ages and let lived "flora & fauna" in the rice cooker.. then, it was the girl who doesnt know how to take care of a very cute cat and lied about using my stuff.. after that, it was a lesbian girl who didnt return the money she borrowed from me and left the apartment without paying 2 mths of rents..

and now, it's one crazy paranoid woman who thot (and is still thinking) that someone is breaking into our apartment and her room (ONLY, mind u, since i have no evidence of anyone is ever in mine) and terrorizing "the peace".. it was still okay when she kept changing the iron-grill's lock (do u know how many keys i have now?) and i couldnt care less that whenever i return home she had to come out of her room to check it out but it went tooo bloody far now..

i returned home one day during office hour coz i got an MC and a pounding headache.. i was driving in the condo's gate and i saw her at the guard's house.. the guard pointed at me and told her "tu dia dah balik" and she went up to the unit.. i sighed, cant i just get a good rest?.. i parked my car and asked the guard what's happening? the guard said "tak tau lah, perempuan tu gila kot".. emm.. that's nothing new..
i went to upstairs with the security guard following me, he told me that my housemate suspected someone had entered her room while she was taking a shower and now is hiding in mine!! aiya, this woman has some really astounding imagination.. we reached my apartment and she was there telling me how the cross beside her bed had fallen and a copy of her road tax is missing and she said she heard a noise from my room and she suspected the person is hiding there.. i unlocked my room with her and the security guard as witnesses..
but she's still not satisfied.. she was going on and on and on about "then how did a copy of my road tax gone missing, and why did my cross fell.. it fell twice oready.. and why were there cigarrette butts on the balcony outside"...
maybe u misplaced the copy of ur roadtax, maybe the blue tack thingie (that held the cross to the wall) should have been replaced when the cross fell the first time, and maybe the tenants upstairs smoked on their balcony and threw the ciggie butt downstairs (yes, i used to do that also) and it fell on our balcony!!
but this is the best one..
she claimed that her room is full of insects..
i told her "look, there's a hutan behind us and it's being developed.. the insects will fly here.."
but nooo.. she wont accept that.. she told me the insects bit her sampai merah2, someone must have put the insects in her room..
i gritted my teeth and snarled out "what, u think someone brought a bottle of biting insects and let them go inside ur room?!"
and guess what she said?
i was dumb-founded..
i was speechless..
i dunno whether to cry or laugh..
my head was pounding like hell..
i just shook my head and slammed the door at her face and fell into my bed hoping to sleep my headache off and hoped whoever it is who's supposedly to be still hiding in my room terrorized her out of the apartment..
that wud be a good-riddance..


i am insulted and am pissed like hell!!
if im a floozy bimbo who does not work in the same company but is still sayang's gf (no offense sayang, just an example), i bet they wudnt have told sayang to come alone to the party!! instructions from the top, MY ASS!! just say that u dont want me to witness anything!

Sunday, March 20, 2005

sacrifice (2)

i was at the track for the F1 weekends, except for Saturday.. sayang and i went back to Melaka..
it was strange being on the track with nothing to do.. i asked Pak Wan what were my duties, and he said, i did mine already before the race, so, just enjoy.. i blinked, and blinked again and decided not to push my luck.. i smiled and said thanx and walked away..
i have a confession to make.. i am not a fan of the sport.. i wanted to be there for personal reason.. one very important personal reason.. sayang will be there.. and for the little time we have during his precious holidays, i want to spend every minute of them with him.. even if i have to be under the hot scorching sun..
but then again, a tan is hardly a sacrifice..

Friday, March 18, 2005

sacrifice (1)

oh panas nya..

sepang international circuit is officially a "hot-zone" for me.. did i tell u i'm a genuine puteri lilin?... i am.. i melt under the hot sun..

but sacrifices have to be made.. and this one is one that will have me smiling through it..

Wednesday, March 16, 2005


ok, someone is getting on my nerve..
i am already feeling like i'm at a dead-end with my PPA, but having someone stop by my cubicle and BRAG about his and how his super praised him, is like having me stabbed from behind and buried 6-feet under where i fall with the knife for the tombstone..
yes, good for you, but I AM NOT IN THE MOOD, ASSHOLE!!
i want to see him after he has had his 5 years here.. and if he still maintains, i will get him a cigar and tabik spring at him.. this, i promise...

four eyes.. or is it two + two?

i have a headache for a couple of days now.. it's the same one i've had off and on for almost three months, how do i know? i know, coz i feel it throbbing behind my forehead/temple area and i suspect it's caused by my contact lenses..
am trying out the contact lense for astigmatism (coz the optician said that my astig power has gone up) and decided that i hated them.. tough, coz i bought 2 boxes of them.. they are not actually bad coz some of my frens really love them but they feel like evil invaders in my eyes.. call me crazy but i can feel them in there..
i usually wear the normal J&J Acuvue soft and they are amazing.. they are soooo soft and i cant feel them in my eyes.. betul and THIS IS NOT AN ADVERTISEMENT ;> i can go on wearing them overnite and they wont stick overly much to my eyeballs when i wake up, i'd just have to blink and they'll return back to normal.. yucky, i know, but the ability for the contact lenses to remain moist and/or be moist quickly is an important criteria for me..
but the one am trying out now, dries up by lunch especially in this aircond and if by some unfortune twist of fate that i fell asleep without taking them off, they will stick to my eyeballs like glue until i put some eye drops!! urrrgghh...
i think i'll change back to Acuvue and have my astig glasses made.. hhmm.. after payday lah..

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

dis and dat

i am still coughing.. sigh.. doesnt help that i've started to smoke again..

but my appetite is worrying me!! i have been eating full meals everyday without fail!!

lesung batu..

i was sound asleep early this morning and suddenly there were loud bangings... i woke up startled and accidently woke sayang up and honest to god, i thot someone was banging on the door coming for us!!
and after our brains started to function properly, we realized that the banging noises were not from the door but were coming from our neighbor's kitchen.. someone was using a LESUNG BATU to pound some god knows what at god knows what time in the freaking morning!!!! UURRRGGGHH!!
i went to the kitchen, thinking that it's the upstairs neighbor, took a broom and started to pound the ceiling with it and went back to bed.. the pounding continued again.. sayang wanted to go and knock on the neighbor's door to tell whoever that is to stop pounding.. i told him no, this is not switzerland, it might be some crazy fella.. so he went to the kitchen, got the window opened and yelled..
HAHAHAHA, go sayang!
he came back to bed and told me that it's the neighbor downstairs and a woman answered him, "oh, boleh dengar ke?"
what the fuck?? did she think that we live in a bomb shelter that we cant possibly hear someone pounding away?? and in the place that we are staying in, i would have thot they can afford a bloody BLENDER..

Monday, March 14, 2005


i am soooo fixated on revenge.. mebe it's a scorpio thing..


i had a bad week last week.. i was sick and i'm still sick, though not as bad as last week.. i got cold and strepthroat and flu and cough and my eyeballs were so heaty that my contact lenses feel like they were on fire..
and then, i had to have a bad mango lassi on Tuesday nite with an empty stomach.. at 3 am in the morning sayang had to send me to the clinic coz i was vomitting so bad.. i got an MC for food poisoning that day and the next day i got another one for cold and flu and fever.. and yes, THEY question me, yet again..
but revenge was sweet this morning.. though not in its full effect, it's a full "whoopy!!" inside my heart.. and i hope every last one of them will fall sick.. i will do my bit by hanging out at their cubicles and coughing relentlessly.. hhmm.. mebe it's not a good idea to blog what i want to do..

Tuesday, March 08, 2005


we went to Naili's for dinner yesterday.. not the one at Ampang but the original one at Sentul, yes, the one with the treehouse and small fountain thingie!
i went there only once with my brothers and i can barely remember how to get there.. but my brother's direction was excellent and we got lost only once (coz i didnt follow direction.. he said exit at sentul but i insist to go smwhere before that, obviously ntg says Sentul at that exit) and luckily sayang was a sport.. anyways, it was not as crowded like the last time i went, mebe coz we went on a monday nite but still with a respectable number of customers..
the restaurant never fails to impress me.. there are different sections of seating in the restaurant and each one of them has different concept to it.. from the treehouse concept, the sit-on-the-floor with a low table, the bistro style, the romantic candlelight and up to the beach-canopy styled concept.. and the service is excellent, i must say.. when we came in, we notice all these waiters but they didnt seem to notice us.. but when we finally chose (yes, we did tend to wander ard the restaurant to check out the different seatings) a place to sit, there was a waiter behind us with the menu.. and they'll make rounds every 5 mins or so, which i did noticed the last time i went, which was on a wknd full of people..
we chose a pelita-lit table at the back corner (there's a coil of ubat nyamuk under each table so be careful) and as we sat there, i told sayang that i wudnt have thot that we were in Sentul.. sayang said it looked like a resort restaurant and it really did! i wished i took some pictures..
the place is CLEAN, the food is good, and the price is ok, a bit more than mamak price but considering the fact that we are served on proper plates (not plastic ones) with decent amount of food (and nice garnishing!), very nice environment, clean floor, i think it's excellent.. and u cant call Naili's a maplai coz it's not..
anyways, the directions from MRR2 South.. u can get there from KL but too many cars..
- take the MRR2, exit at Sentul, at the fork (u'll know what i mean when u exit there, it's a really a fork!) take the one to Sentul, not Gombak or smtg.. u're on Lebuhraya Karak (i think)
- go straight (well, the road is windy but u know what i mean) till u reach a T-junction with traffic light,
- take a right into Sentul (left will take u to Jln Genting Klang or smtg)..
- go straight until u reach a major simpang empat with traffic light, take left into Kg. Dato Senu (there's an Esso/Mobil at the simpang empat, so, if u passed the gas station, u've missed the junction)
- go straight until a T-junction and Naili's is on ur right at the corner..
- enjoy..

Monday, March 07, 2005

if i were early

i was late to the airport on Saturday.. it was horrible and i felt so bad.. i cudnt sleep the nite before coz i kept thinking abt the "episode" that happened, and i guess, plotting revenge.. i fell asleep smtime ard 3 or 4 in the morning and woke up at 7am k!!! sayang's plane is landing in 45 mins!! So, i washed up and rushed out and sped up along the MRR2 and on to the Plus highway (does anyone know if it's faster and cheaper to go to KLIA through putrajaya?).. anyways, my phone rang and sayang already landed, damn, the flight is early.. i said sorry and will be there as soon as possible and as fast as Daisy can go..
but before the Nilai exit, there was an accident and cars are lining up .. ohmigod.. i cudnt see what kinda accident and i didnt particularly care, just get it out of the highway so i can be on my way!!! the cars finally started to crawled with all three lanes having to merge into one and i saw the accident, which is not quite far from where i was stuck on the hiway.. a lori balak was on the side of the road with its "balak" scattered on the three lanes.. there was a body on the middle of the road amongst the rubble of the balak.. and other cars lining up on the side, either with punctured tyres or some other mishaps due to coming in contact with the falling or fallen "balak"s..
and i thot, ohmigod, if i were early...

oh bliss...

oh bliss.. i am undeniably blissful.. and blessed..

yes, sayang's home..

though not for good, but enuf to make me smile from ear to ear..

Friday, March 04, 2005


of all the things that could have happened, THIS, has to happen today, now, at 5pm in the F*****G friday evening!!
of all the things that could have happened, it has to happen today, the day before sayang balik and ruin my good mood!!!
of all the people!!!
of all the F*****G nerves in the F*****G world!!!


if only i havent done my hair, i would have gone to the gym and work this horrible stress out
if only there's a punching bag in the gym
if only i can grit my teeth harder
if only i'm not on a diet i would have wallup a freaking tub of ben&jerry's

i probably deserved half of the lecture portion but U HAVE NO RIGHT TO LECTURE ME ON THAT OTHER HALF!!! why dont u lecture sayang?? dont have the guts huh? just because u have problems with ur daughter, dont take it out on me! I PRAY UR DAUGHTERS WILL DO WORSE, u weak-spined door-mat mother-f*****g S.O.B!!!!

hell hath no fury like a woman scorned

i will bid my time


oh, have to check car and tyres!!
remember what happen the last time i was at the airport?



i cant wait..
i cant stop smiling..
i cant stop smiling...
i sooo cant stop smiling..


have to do hair..
have to do nails..
have to get some little thingies..
get waterproof eyeliner..
hhmm.. wat else..

a nice beauty sleep coz his flight is early in the morning..
oh, eye cream!