Friday, February 25, 2005

TGIF, again..

this morning i received my Royal Sporting House (RSH) vouchers (the ones i traded my citibank reward points for) and i was sooo excited to get my new nike trainers from Studio R (yes, i oso just knew that Studio R is under RSH) during the 2hr women's-shopping-session-while-men-go-to-pray friday lunch..
but since Isetan is having a sale, i decided to go there first to check out the sports section (who knows it might be cheaper) so i went.. it's not exactly what i wanted but it's still in the same line, and costs the same if i were to get 100 bucks off from the original price at Studio R (i've checked much earlier ;>).. so i squatted down and look for my size amongst the sizes 6 and 5, and mumbled alone when it's not there.. one of the sales guy heard me and asked what size was i looking for, i mumbled out 8.. and he said "why so big" with a smile.. huh? HUH?!!
i think it's supposed to be a joke but since im soo obsessed and sensitive about my feet i almost smacked him with one of the display pair.. i managed a grin and scurried out and up the stairs to Studio R.. but again, the ones that i wanted did not have my size.. oh shit... i soo wanted that nike trainers.. but its ok, they have a "wall" of shoes, am certain there's another pair of trainers that i would like as well.. so i asked the sales person, which ones are for training? and she said "semua ni lah" and left to lipat some baju.. huh? excuse me, those are for running, i've checked, but i am not going to check all of the shoes on the wall.. and i thot they are supposed to know.. frustrated, i left and went to starbucks to join zi with her brother and her very pregnant sister-in-law.. and she still can wear jeans?!
anyways, i was telling her what happened and pulled out the vouchers to show her (confused, i think) and then i saw something, a condition phrase "..only applicable with the following agent lines..." and i check the footnote, of course, nike is not on it.. hhmmm... thank god for big feet, otherwise, i would have been embarassed at the counter coz i brought no cash.. ok, mebe not embarassed, coz always got plastic, but it beats the point of getting that vouchers!! i could have gotten A Cut and Above vouchers instead if i'd known.. could have gotten new highlights or done rebonding or something.. UURRRGGHHH..
but thank god it's friday...

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

special message for sayang..

come over and watch the city lights from my place.. it's a magnificent view..


born night owls!

hahaha funny!
(excerpts from In The Heat of Debate: It's not a question of traditional vs western 98)
Do you constantly have trouble getting to sleep? Chances are this kind of insomnia is genetic. An article in the journal Sleep suggests that regular sufferers are more likely to have differences in one of the genes governing their body clocks. They are up until all hours because their internal timetable tells them to sleep only long after others have gone to bed. The result: they turn up for work feeling miserable. Author Dr. Emmanuel Mignot calls for insomniacs to be given genetic tests so they can begin figuring out which hours best suit their internal clocks. Now to find an employer whose idea of flextime is truly elastic.
how i wish that's easy!!!

heart attacks?

i was browsing the net for cures or food to reduce heatiness and came across this.. emm.. interesting..
(excerpts from In The Heat of Debate: It's not a question of traditional vs western 98)
When champion sprinter Florence Griffith Joyner died in September, some wondered if her premature end at age 38 might have been caused by use of performance-enhancing products (she never failed a drug test). New research suggests athletes who shine in power sports such as football - or sprinting - are more prone to heart attacks. Professor Michael Lean of Glasgow University based his finding on the health records of 231 ex-soldiers. The subjects were categorized according to whether they did better in endurance activities such as long-distance running, or in those requiring short bursts of power. About 19% of those with "power muscles" later suffered heart disease compared to 10% of those with "endurance muscles."

Tuesday, February 22, 2005


ok.. after cooling down, i'll consider inviting him.. consider only k, yang..

had it!

i'm beat.. and i have had enuf..

i'm not gonna care S*** anymore, and he will NOT get an invitation tau, sayang!! i dont care if he's a family friend.. UURRRRGGGHHH!!!!!!!!!!

Friday, February 18, 2005

the weekends are here! the weekends are here!

honestly, the week went by pretty fast and i couldnt be happier.. after work today, i'm gonna go to the travel agency and book my ticket for the travel fair deal.. i am not gonna be rushing to Mines and get myself crushed between over-zealous "aunties" to get travel deals.. the last time i went to Matta fair, i was pushed, shoved and stuck between these two rowdy "aunties" and i swear to god, i could smell their lunches from their breaths..
anyways, have a good weekend people..


sayang read my blog and told me flat foot is like "kaki itik"... ala... i am officially so obsessed with my feet.. look what i did this morning!!

but the good thing is, i look normal! hehehe..

Thursday, February 17, 2005

running shoes

i have a new goal for my exercises.. i want to run, ok, on the treadmill, of course..

i used to be able to run but now, besides the reason that i cant seemed to catch my breath, the soles of my feet have a tendecy to cramp easily, very easily.. one of the gym's instructor asked me if i am flat-footed.. thank god, i was not insulted ;> but no, i dont have flat-feet, my tennis coach said so! so i thot it must be becoz of my shoes as they are pretty old and getting uncomfortable..

so, ok, get new running shoes.. but there are thousands of shoes in the market and i have no freaking idea which one is best for my feet.. usually, i shop for tennis shoes and they are pretty easy to find (ok, the labels on the shoes do give it away) but running shoes are aliens to me.. i usually ended up looking for the cutest pair on the "wall" of shoes..

but now, i want the right one, and i dont trust the suggestions from any of the sales people in Malaysia.. they pretty much dont know what they are talking about and are only concern with whether or not we buy their stuff.. kinda irritating coz when we decided that we are not interested to buy, they automatically sulk and turn away..

so, i went looking in the internet on tips on how to find suitable running shoes.. and woo! i might be needing shoes for the flat-footed afterall!
as far as i can remember (seeing my wet footprints on the floor) my feet eerily looks like the flatfoot type.. flatfoot doesnt mean that u have no arches on your feet at all, the arches can be lower than normal.. low arches also signify that u need that extra special shoes that cost a whole lot more than normal-footed people.. sigh.. then maybe i'll trade in my Citibank reward points for vouchers from Royal Sporting House..
hehe.. read this.. oh, i seemed to be hvg a technical difficulty on posting the pics of each types of foot.. so, bear with me, i'll put them on later..

There’s no single ‘best shoe’ – everyone has different needs. All sorts of things - your biomechanics, your weight, the surfaces you run on, and obviously, the shape of your feet - mean that one person's ideal shoe can be terrible for another person. We divide our shoes into three main categories (cushioned, stability and motion control); and three minor ones (performance training, racing and off-road). The first three are everyday options and are categorised essentially by your biomechanical needs; the second three are more specialised and you’d often only consider them as second shoes.

The first step in finding your basic shoe needs is to try our 'Wet Test', below or, preferably, to visit a biomechanics expert or experienced shoe retailer. The Wet Test works works on the basis that the shape of your wet footprint on a dry floor or piece of paper roughly correlates with the amount of stability you might need in your shoe. Take note: 'roughly'! It's a handy starting point.

The Normal Foot

Normal feet have a normal-sized arch and will leave a wet footprint that has a flare, but shows the forefoot and heel connected by a broad band. A normal foot lands on the outside of the heel and rolls inwards slightly to absorb shock. It’s the foot of a runner who is biomechanically efficient and therefore doesn’t need a motion control shoe.
Best shoes: Stability shoes with moderate control features.

The Flat Foot
This has a low arch and leaves a print which looks like the whole sole of the foot. It usually indicates an overpronated foot – one that strikes on the outside of the heel and rolls inwards (pronates) excessively. Over time, this can cause many different types of overuse injuries.
Best shoes: Motion control shoes, or high stability shoes with firm midsoles and control features that reduce the degree of pronation. Stay away from highly cushioned, highly curved shoes, which lack stability features.

The High-Arched Foot
This leaves a print showing a very narrow band or no band at all between the forefoot and the heel. A curved, highly arched foot is generally supinated or underpronated. Because it doesn’t pronate enough, it’s not usually an effective shock absorber.
Best shoes: Cushioned (or 'neutral') shoes with plenty of flexibility to encourage foot motion. Stay away from motion control or stability shoes, which reduce foot mobility.

The Other Shoe Types
Our other shoe categories are for faster runners, and off-road runners: Performance Trainers, Racing Shoes & Off-road shoes


yesterday was a good day at the gym.. still couldnt believe that i can do 40 mins on the stepper!! all thanx to the excellent beats of the Step class while i was on it.. my CD collections have been getting old and most of them are RNB beats so they are rather slow..
maybe i should be asking the aerobic instructors for their CD collections! or better yet, do my exercises during the classes.. somehow it always perks me up better and distract me from the pain in my whole body and that little voice that kept telling me "im soo tired, i cant do this anymore, stop it, thats enuf"...
but strangely, it'll only works on the steppers, the treadmills (sometimes and only during brisk walk) and that strange machines between the stepper and the two treadmills (i have no idea what they are called).. i cant hold my concentration with music if im on the bike.. i dunno why.. mebe it's the fact that im counting on the beats and the bike, well, doesnt have beats...
i guess different people have different kinds of drive (for lack of better word) to keep them interested and concentrated on the exercises that they are doing.. gym can be rather boring and painful (oh yeah) and you will quit in a heartbeat if you dont have that drive to continue... whatever it is, it's all in the power of the mind and the will.. and for me, the power of the music..

Monday, February 14, 2005


i got my valentine's presies already this morning... yea!! yea!! ;>
there was the sweetest email from sayang with a picture that i will stay longer tonite in the office to abuse the color printer! and then, on my way to a meeting, my handphone rang, there's delivery for me downstairs.. flowers and chocolate, woo hoo!! and i was smiling all the way downstairs and up again.. monday has never been this cheery and lovely!! i love u sayang!!
oh, now, have to go and get a vase..

My Love

No words said will ever be enough,
No songs serenaded will ever be so sweet,
No poetry written will ever express,

My love for you,
So true,

But a whisper,
From the deepest within,

For every beat of my heart
Says... I love u..

** from sayang, 14 February 2005

Friday, February 11, 2005

writing love poem

i have been trying to write a love poem for sayang, ever since the 1st of February, and it has been futile.. i just cant seem to rhyme anything anymore! it used to be so easy but now, i get easily distracted.. mebe my room is too quite, silence can be very deafening..

uurrrggghhh!! will try again tomorrow.. but planning to write never work for me.. the expectation of having to produce something is very stressful.. oh god, why am i making this so complicated? think of how u feel about him and it'll flow just fine..


i went to watch Constantine today with my brothers and cousin (before my brother's car broke down, thank god, we drove separate cars or we would have been stuck) at Mahkota Parade.. u guys who have had the pleasure of visiting Mahkota Parade will know of how congested it can be just to get there and to find a parking there.. i swear to god, it's worse than trying to find parking at One Utama on a Sunday! so anyways, Constantine was very interesting... i liked it, and i think keanu didnt do a shoddy job this time.. his character suits his "stoned-cannot-act-emo" facial expressions unlike his other movies.. hehehe..
i remembered watching Sweet November or something, where he acted with.. err.. Charlize Theron (was it?) and i was laughing my heads off just looking at his face! it was supposed to be a very sad movie coz the girl has cancer or smtg and he's falling in love with her and just realized that she's dying, but for the love of god, he didnt look sad at all.. instead, (my opinion) he looked, kinda like, stumped, or probably blur is a better word.. if he was scratching his head at that time, i swear to god, he'd looked like he's trying to figure out the meaning of the word cancer, rather than being shocked and sad..
oh well, he's still so yummy.. and it cant be denied that i'll be there in the audience, drooling over him.. whether he's looking really good in an action pact malboro-silent-type-guy movie or really bad in a lovey dovey or heart-wrenching sob story movie, i'll continue drooling..

my brother's car

my brother's car broke down today.. his timing belt snapped, thank god it was just that.. he has been having this unlucky streaks with his cars.. sigh.. but thank god, he himself has been lucky..

i love my brothers, very very much, and i cant stop worrying about them every single minute, especially this one.. he loves fast cars and he loves driving them fast too, and i cant stand it.. i know how it feels like to love speed but not up to a certain level where it'll become a threat.. i hope it's just a phase, i hope he'll learn before it gets to him..

please god, watch over him...

Thursday, February 10, 2005

Maal Hijrah

before the night is out, my new year resolutions for maal hijrah:
  • remember Him always; let it be sunshine or rain, laughters or tears, i will try to remember Him with every beat of my heart, besides, He owns it.. the duties i've neglected are always reminded..
  • kinder to my parents; u have rebuilt my bridge with them, sayang..
  • mindful of my brothers;
  • last but not least, i will make u happier, sayang, and i will love u more, forever..


yes! yes! yes! kudos for me! pat on my back..

i have succeeded in posting a picture in my blog! ok, lets not get too excited just yet, it's just ONE picture and it's only a clipart.. i have yet to learn how to make an album.. maybe later.. have to go down for dinner now, my brother has been relentlessly knocking on my door.. sigh.. dont they know the meaning of a diet? well, lets see, 18 more days to go before sayang arrives, ok, still have time..

taking a nap

aiyo, one of the things i hate being in melaka during long holidays is that there's NOTHING to do.. it's too bloody hot to go out, well, actually, i just got back from jusco and my god there's a lot of people over there!!

anyways, i've decided to go back to KL this Saturday instead of Sunday, mainly to avoid the horrendous jam at Senawang-Seremban and then farah's son will be celebrating his 1st b'day this Sunday at 5.. oh, what to get him uh? what to get a one year old kid? toys? what sorta toys? soft toys, smart kid toys? clothes? he'll grow out of them in a matter of months.. hiya.. linda, since u're the future momsie-in-law, u figure it out k! hehehe..

k peeps, am gonna take a nap for a while..


oh god, is it just me or is it really THAT difficult to post pics into my blog??? it's half past midnite and my contact lenses are literally plastered to my eyeballs, seriously k, coz i cant feel them move when i blink really hard.. i give up.. if u guys want to see my pics, come see me.. i will personally show them to u.. sigh.. ok, mebe 2moro i'll try again..

anyways, i missed dinner.. went downstairs just now and ate the sup tulang my mom prepared and it was sooo yummy.. i havent had that dish for ages and it's as good as i remembered it to be..

oh no, guilt trip.. no, not over the soup i ate (geez, am not THAT bad).. it's over the fact that i sat up here, in my room, while my mom prepared dinner..

confession: i have been doing that for ages.. somehow, i cant seem to bring myself to help in the kitchen..

excuses: it's mom's territory and she's so skilled in there and i always feel inept just being there.. up till now.. and it led my parents to think that i cant cook.. eemm..

ok, pause for a moment, sayang's on the line..

UUURRRGGGHHH.... inhale exhale inhale exhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaleeeeeeee.... so, ok, does this mean that i cant blog anymore???
pause again..
ok, it's settled then... fuuhhh... and i love u too..

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

lil pointed shoe

ok, tonight i will learn how to post pictures in my blog.. shouldnt be that hard, ya? oh please tell me it's not that hard..
oh, lin, if u decide to come to melaka, call me eh! we can go to Jonker's Street together gether.. my mom showed me a souvenir her best friend brought her from Holland, it's a small wooden pointed hand-painted chinese shoe and i started to laugh.. mom, u can get those from Jonker's Street!! why in the world do they sell those in Holland for souvenirs? or maybe it's a real holland-ish (what do they call Holland people? oh, yes, dutch) traditional shoe that looks really similar to the ones from China, or something.. man, am gonna get my ass swatted by my mom if she gets to know this!
emm.. more's the reason to visit Holland.. they do have much more interesting things to experience there other than shoes..

hop in, my fren!

yatt, forget emails.. just sign in to blog at it's soo easy, it's like writing a public diary or email for your friends out there or just another outlet to YELL out.. hehehe.. but its quite scary when u call up ur fren and wanted to chat for a while and tell her what u've been doing so far and she said "oh yea, i know, i've read ur blog!" hahahah!! so, hop in beb! hugs and kisses and say hi to steve! oh god, i still cant remember his malay name..

greetings from melaka and a very happy chinese new year!!

greetings from melaka and a very happy chinese new year!!

i had just spent 3 hot sweaty hours on the highway to Melaka (yes, aircond again) and it didnt get any better reaching here.. i wonder why Melaka is so much hotter than KL.. KL has more skyscrapers (well, actually, melaka has none :>) that are supposedly to retain more heat in the environment and also less green.. oh well, watever it is, it's still, without fail, feels like home.. home cooked meals, comfy childish bedroom, unlimited usage of computers and internet (daddy pays wat...) and ASTRO...

oh yes, didnt realize how much i miss Astro till i'm here.. cant believe how i actually survived with just 4, ok lets make that 3, RTM1 does not count, channels.. but i managed to hold off from getting Astro for myself, for nearly 5 years, giving myself all sorts of reasons.. reasons such as:

  1. i spent most of my waking hours in the office, the gym, the mamak stall and others
  2. weekends are for
    i. recuperating from hangover,
    ii. recuperating from bad week,
    iii. lunches wih friends i dont see during weekdays
    iv. shopping
    v. finishing off tonnes of work
    vi. laundry & cleaning
  3. i will get one when i move into my own apartment
  4. i will get one when the new cable company starts to operate (competition will provide
    better deals)
  5. i will get one when i get married (so hubby will pay hehe)
  6. why waste 50 bucks on something i get to watch, oh mebe for 3 hrs a day,when i can use it
    to get new pair of shoes every month.. logic eh

so anyways, there's no point of getting my own astro now, is there, sayang? :> ok, talk later peeps, mom's cooking something and it smells sooo good from up here...

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

growing pains

i received a letter from Noble House London today.. a publishing company, who's interested to publish one of my poems that i've posted in net, with a lot of other poems in a volume called Labours of Love.. hhmmm... inhale.. deeply... more deeply.. exhale... poetry used to be a channel for me to express myself.. for those personal feelings or journeys that i went through.. and they have never been revealed to others.. until last year, exactly last year this month.. yes, of course, after the BASIC..

i have always been a scholarly-clumsy-big-eyed-and-solemn kid.. my parents are big on education and restrain of oneself.. some of my frens still dont belief that the first time i actually listen and enjoy the radio was in my first year of boarding school.. god forbid if my dad caught me humming to the tunes.. for others, boarding schools might be a form of restriction but for me, secretly, it was freedom.. out of the gilded cage.. yes, the conditions of the school i went to was (and still is, i heard), undeniably, deplorable but the fact that it was far away from my parents made it heaven (once i've gotten all the kinks of being a brat out of my system ;>).. all i have to do were two things; maintain a straight A record and dont get caught.. and it was easy..

anyways, years of repressed feelings and emotions did strange things to my communication skills back then (HAHA! now i cant seemed to stop talking), so the easiest channel of self-expression was through my writings.. i wrote poetries, short and long stories, everything... but i have never shown them to anyone; they were always personal to me.. and in a way, it's that childhood insecurity of what-if-it's-not-good-enuf-for-others that got to me.. sigh..

anyways, almost all of my writings were lost in the packings from boarding school and went overseas.. now, i still write but i cant seem to sit still anymore.. i used to be able to sit at one place and just wander in my imagination (oh yeah, especially during high school history classes) for hours but now, there's always something, in reality, that interests me.. so that's why, sayang, the States will always be close to my heart.. i grew up, physically and mentally most of all, there... it was a painful process but it made me, what i am today and what i'll be tomorrow..



u are my reason
for living..

my hope
for the future..

and my love

have a safe trip.. i love u..

the holiday mood

the holiday mood is definitely up in my veins today.. i'm so blur and demotivated to do anything.. my colleague tried to handover some stuff coz she's transfering soon after the CNY but nothing registered in my head.. and it doesnt help having a sorethroat and an ulcer under my tongue and i think my wisdom tooth is peeking out again coz my gums are sore! i thot wisdom teeth are supposed to be gone when u reach ur 20s!!

anyways, sepang was soooo hot yesterday (bad hot, not hot hot) and i was sweating like a pig during the meeting and all the way home coz my freaking aircond is still not fixed yet.. yes, gurls, since the first year it broke.. i just dont have time to fix it.. and i dont want to go and fix it alone.. yes, yes, dependency is a bad thing but if it has anything to do with cars (tyres and all), i would rather have them done by my macho man.. who, unfortunately is not here now.. sigh..

but dont tell me that u guys out there dont get all puffed up with pride when ur lil gurl frens call u up in their distress-cum-manja voices asking for ur help.. hahaha, a lil double standard for a supposedly-independent-i-can-do-them-myself woman, i know, but for things like this, why bother get my nails dirty (and broken for that matter) when i can get my sexy guy squatting and flexing his oh-so-yummy muscles for me.. but for my case, i have to wait every 2-3 months for my hunky sexy guy to be home.. sigh..

Monday, February 07, 2005

college friends..

hey peeps.. it's monday.. but thank god we only have 2 working days this week!! yea yea! Happy chinese new year in advance!

the weekends were excellent! met some old college friends whom i havent seen for the longest time, ever since we graduated for that matter.. all thanx to anis who came back for a visit from the States, so come back home more often beb!! i was exhausted but on a high-happy-gear and i have never eaten as much chocolate cakes as i did during those 2 days! i definitely have used up all of my bad calorie quota for the rest of the year.. sigh.. where has that losing-5kg-resolution went to? yes, down the drain..

anyways, of all the kids that our friends had so successfully produced (and will keep on producing ;>) i have to say that farah won the best looking son and tina the best looking daughter awards, under 5 years of age that is coz we never would know how they will look like in the future.. i was not a cute baby, but look how i turned out.. HAHAHAH!!! and looking at them, i cant wait to have my own.. sigh.. hopefully with maid though.. and we r not gonna have a set of football team k, sayang..
ok lah peeps, have to go and get lunch, then have to run to sepang for a meeting, and back to KLCC for gym.. it's gonna be a loooong day since i'll be spending extra time on the stepper today for all those devil-but-oh-so-yummy chocolate cakes i've stuffed in my ass..

Friday, February 04, 2005


i swear to god i'm so blurr today.. i thot today is monday!! for good reasons though, i spent 4 days in bangi for a course and 2day felt like monday coz it was kinda like the first day in the office..
oh, how i wish it could be like this all year around, only one day in the office and then it's friday!!! wouldnt dat be sweet.. sigh.. if only wishes were horses.. well, have a nice weekends peeps..


oh, i've just realized that valentine's day this year falls on a Monday! yea! hahaha!!
at least it's not on a weekends or something..

last year, ehmm.. what did i do on valentine's last year? oh, OH! i went to the BASIC last year.. yup, the main reason why i went was to avoid valentine's day coz it fell on a saturday!! and i just turned single and i was still in a mess and i didnt want to be 'wallup'ing the chocolate mud cake and ruining my cute ass.. i had to admit, last year i had a very cute ass!! hahah! oh, go ahead and puke.. and then, i got comfy and now, hmm... on to the stepper, missy!

the month of love.. oh shit..

valentine's day is around the corner.. wish i could just say, so what? no big deal.. yeah right.. it's a big deal to me, alright..
but it'll be ok..sigh.. even though sayang is like thousands of miles away, and its our first valentine's day... sigh again.. i know he wanted to come home but he had to go to germany for some testing.. it's really is ok, sayang.. hehe..

Wednesday, February 02, 2005


am still in bangi.. sigh.. today we are learning about the components of costs among other things.. oh great, like that 2 semesters in college were not enuf..

anyways, am in a dilemma now.. should i apply for a new position now considering that i will be applying for a year off at the end of the year and currently am laden with a new responsibility till end of July? or should i just wait till i come back from my year off even if i have to endure another 9 months of bulls***?

sayang..... how????? i work with u lah ye.. ur personal executive assistant cum domestic engineering director ;> hahahaha!