Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Monday, August 29, 2005
as clear and real as i closed my eyes
a world above the reaching skies
sentences formed in a blur of motion
paragraphs and chapters and closed captions
a word, no, two, a jot here and there
days or nights, i no longer care
wings i borrow, my soul i bare
but my tears, my love is always there...
Copyright ©2005 Dila Mohd
Saturday, August 27, 2005
but i wonder how good the connection is.. especially with that celcom advertisement that showed the couple camping somewhere in front of a lake, in their tent, connected to the wireless internet, really huh? dalam hutan pun can get connection? or is it in front of lake titiwangsa? dalam KL pun sometimes reception not good, lagi mau dalam hutan..
anyways, i have to get home now.. my mom already called, dinner time.. till the next starbucks venue..
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
yes, i finally joined the cheapos world of wireless... hehehe.. no offense, but oh my god, its so bloody easy to just sit here and connect to the internet!!!!!!!!
i tell u this free internet thingy VANDERFULL...
and i have downloaded skype to explore more of the world of cheapos connection.. hehehe.. hey, our combined phone bill now can get me a tix to zurich k..
k lah, peeps... talk later..
Thursday, July 14, 2005
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Thursday, June 30, 2005
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
i dont know what to say..
i didnt want to be a spoiler but here it goes..
95% of the movie was WAH.. WAH.. and WAH!! it was as good as the trailer made it to be.. tom cruise was as cute and droolly as ever, and the effects were nail-biting and hand-gripping (sorry yang..)
and the last 5% was... was... eh?
maybe it should be called "The Ferriers' Journey to Grandma's House" instead of "War of the Worlds" coz it did seem like that was the highpoint of the movie..
forget getting the dvd.. i will look for Independence Day dvd instead..
dear mr. spielberg,
i understand that its the ending in the book but could u at least twist it a bit so it'll be as dramatic and as 'punching' as the rest of movie? u changed most of the story-line from the book, why not the ending.... why not the ending??!!!
disclamer: this is a personal opinion.. hehehe
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Saturday, June 25, 2005
Friday, June 24, 2005
yes, sayang's not-so-new apartment has a loft of somewhat, that has a bedroom, bathroom and a balcony.. downstairs are the kitchen, living room and a yard.. it's cool actually.. but not when u realized that u left ur ciggies downstairs early in the morning.. and then, it's my only exercise over here.. up and down the stairs..
tonite we are having dinner at erich's house, sayang's boss.. which reminds me, i have to go get some chocos for his gf.. man, i havent even showered and there's another load of laundry waiting for me..
yes, i have a thing with doing laundries, especially when there's a dryer and am not paying for electricity and water.. i cant wait to have dirty clothes so that i can do laundry again.. hahahah.. u must think am joking, but i am not.. the only thing that annoys me with doing laundry is having to fold or hang them in the closet.. sigh.. sicko..
Thursday, June 23, 2005
oh, thanx to maggi for a vanderfuul creation...
1 paket rempah nasi beriani Maggi
2 cups of beras - washed and drained
1 bawang besar - cincang
1 cube chicken stock
2 tablespoons (or more) margerine / mentega / ghee etc
different kinds of rempah ratus, amts are as per ur on taste (u have to know that i have no idea what they are called.. the easiest is to just get the already mixed ones at carrefour)
- some bunga lawang, 1 kayu manis, some cengkih, little green pods thingies, etc..
some raisins and green peas
1. Put margerine in a heated pan. Stir fry bawang and rempah ratus till golden brown.
2. Add in rempah nasi beriani and chicken stock till wangi.
3. Add in beras and stir fry till completly mixed
4. Transfer the mixed beras (rempah ratus, oil and all in the pan) into the rice cooker pot.
5. Put in water - i have no idea how much water u'll need.. for me, it depends on the level of the beras, something my mom taught me.. Stick in ur index finger till the bottom of the pot and measure the height of the beras level. then, lift ur finger and stick it in again but this time only up to the top of the beras, measure the height of the water on top of the beras. the height of ur water level should equal the height of the beras level. confuse? well, cook it as u would cook ur normal rice in the rice cooker..
6. when its cook, and the rice cooker clicked to warm, add in the raisins and peas and stir to mix well.
7. leave for few minutes and serve with rendang ayam or ayam madu or kurma, made also from either adabi or maggi... eh, at least i didnt use brahim and just pour in what's in the packet..
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Press conference scheduled for later today. BMW expected to unveil Sauber plans...
After months of rumour, BMW will later today hold a press conference in Germany where they will announce its plans ongoing plans with Peter Sauber’s Swiss-based F1 team. Prof. Dr. Burkhard Göschel (Member of the Board of Management of the BMW AG, Development and Purchasing), Dr. Mario Theissen (BMW Motorsport Director) and Peter Sauber will be present at the press conference. It has been speculated that BMW will purchase the Sauber team although both parties have always denied such a suggestion claiming that they are in talks over an engine supply deal for the 2006 season.
êxcerpts from http://f1.racing-live.com/en/index.html
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Sunday, June 19, 2005
if we were to have a garden, yang, please get me a heavy duty motorized lawn-mower.. but then again, cutting off the grass with a gardening cutter (i have no idea what those 'macho' version of an ordinary scissors are called) can be quite therapeutic.. chomp chomp chomp.. and u see them fall down...
Saturday, June 18, 2005
happy 22nd birthday, dear brother, and a lot more to come..
i wish u all ur wishes to come true..
i wish u all the happiness in world
i wish u a love so true
and i pray that God continues to grace his blessings upon u..
Friday, June 17, 2005
Monday, June 13, 2005
Thursday, June 09, 2005
i know u can be much much faster than me if u choose too..
but until u do (choose to be fast, that is) MOVE to the left lane!!!
i'm freaking late and u drive like this is some sight-seeing bridge!!
ppl use this highway to get to the office FAST, if u want to fiddle-daddle, use jalan ampang!!
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Monday, May 30, 2005
Friday, May 27, 2005
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
Saturday, May 14, 2005
Friday, May 13, 2005
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Monday, May 09, 2005
i called up my mom to wish her happy mother's day.. i know, i know, i forgot.. and she wished me back, saying that soon i'll be a mother too.. oh no, i sensed an impending awkward moment..
my communication level with my parents is minute, it might as well be zero.. but ever since my announcement of getting married sunk in, and the planning has been a bit chaotic, we've managed to talk quite a bit.. although our conversations are laced with nervous laughters and silly jokes to counter the awkwardness, i thot they were nice progress.. i have been moaning and whining about the chaos but now, if it is a form, i would embrace chaos..
i've told u before, sayang, that our relationship will be the bridge of me and my parents.. thank you from the deepest of my heart..
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
well, i did.. but then, there's this weally weally weally pwetty duvet cover with matching bedsheet set and it's 60% off.. and i waaaaaaant... but it's 60% off from RM700+ .. and the thing is, i found matching bedskirts in Mines and it's oso on sale... uwaaa..
y do u test me so... am only a woman..
Saturday, April 30, 2005
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Monday, April 25, 2005
Friday, April 22, 2005
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Thursday, March 24, 2005
** When my friend was preparing to get married, she started getting all sorts of advice especially at bridal showers and things like that from family and friends. But one of the most interesting "lessons" came from a woman we met for the first time, just a few weeks before her big day. She said, "Honey, whatever you do, don't ever let yourself become a "make-do" woman" I had no idea what she meant, but, of course, she was about to explain.
She continued, "men" don't deny themselves anything. Whatever they want to buy, they buy. Whatever they want to do, they do. Meanwhile, there is the wife, making do with her hair not being done, her clothes from yesteryear, her nails in need, never had a pedicure, scraping the bottom of her tube of lipstick! Oh, I could go on and on with how "we" make do.
And why? Because the car needs fixing, this bill is behind, we have to use our time to take care of this, or take care of that; we're saving for this, working, cooking, cleaning, raising, etc." She warned me to never become a make-do woman, because she says if you start, it is hard to stop and one could easily find themselves making-do for the rest of their lives.
I have decided that I am going to make my best effort to become a "make-time" woman! I will make the time to do what I need to do to be good to myself, whether that's a trip to the salon, or the gym or the mall. This time I'm gonna take a lesson from the guys! **
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
last nite, taking lin’s advice, we went to stock up some food from Giants.. cans of drinks, instant coffee, chips, pringles, chipsmore (yea!), oranges and maggi in my mug (just in case we wanna have late nite snack).. and then, sayang saw crunchy peanut butter and immediately grabbed it... hehe.. now i guess we have to go and get some bread coz sayang wants to bring crunchy peanut butter sandwiches to the beach.. emm.. yum yum.. for that matter, i oso grabbed the stripy peanut butter..
so now, we have a carry-on luggage FULL of food!! hahaha.. it was so funny coz we havent packed any clothes yet, and we already have a full carry-on luggage.. then, we went to my apartment to get my stuff aka more clothes, matching shoes and sandals, bag, bikinis, pareo, sunglasses, tiny lil thingies and the bottle of wine we kept from last year's visit to Avillion.. sayang blinked at the amount of stuff i brought from my apartment, i took a pity on him and told him i dont intend to bring ALL of them, i just wanted them at sayang's place so that i'll have a fair amount of choices when we do the final packing.. and i can see sayang sighed visibily..
we'll probably leave tomorrow morning after breakfast, just in case we want to do "lil or big business".. neither of us has experience journey to the east coast so we cant gage how far betweens are the rest areas.. oh, have to remember to get Terengganu's map.. we plan to drive to KT to look for batik.. i wonder if KT would even have a proper city map..
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
Monday, March 21, 2005
first, it was the girl who left dirty dishes in the sink for ages and let lived "flora & fauna" in the rice cooker.. then, it was the girl who doesnt know how to take care of a very cute cat and lied about using my stuff.. after that, it was a lesbian girl who didnt return the money she borrowed from me and left the apartment without paying 2 mths of rents..
and now, it's one crazy paranoid woman who thot (and is still thinking) that someone is breaking into our apartment and her room (ONLY, mind u, since i have no evidence of anyone is ever in mine) and terrorizing "the peace".. it was still okay when she kept changing the iron-grill's lock (do u know how many keys i have now?) and i couldnt care less that whenever i return home she had to come out of her room to check it out but it went tooo bloody far now..
i returned home one day during office hour coz i got an MC and a pounding headache.. i was driving in the condo's gate and i saw her at the guard's house.. the guard pointed at me and told her "tu dia dah balik" and she went up to the unit.. i sighed, cant i just get a good rest?.. i parked my car and asked the guard what's happening? the guard said "tak tau lah, perempuan tu gila kot".. emm.. that's nothing new..
Sunday, March 20, 2005
Friday, March 18, 2005
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
Monday, March 14, 2005
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
Monday, March 07, 2005
Friday, March 04, 2005
of all the things that could have happened, it has to happen today, the day before sayang balik and ruin my good mood!!!
of all the people!!!
of all the F*****G nerves in the F*****G world!!!
if only i havent done my hair, i would have gone to the gym and work this horrible stress out
if only there's a punching bag in the gym
if only i can grit my teeth harder
if only i'm not on a diet i would have wallup a freaking tub of ben&jerry's
i probably deserved half of the lecture portion but U HAVE NO RIGHT TO LECTURE ME ON THAT OTHER HALF!!! why dont u lecture sayang?? dont have the guts huh? just because u have problems with ur daughter, dont take it out on me! I PRAY UR DAUGHTERS WILL DO WORSE, u weak-spined door-mat mother-f*****g S.O.B!!!!
hell hath no fury like a woman scorned
i will bid my time
i cant wait..
i cant stop smiling..
i cant stop smiling...
i sooo cant stop smiling..
have to do hair..
have to do nails..
have to get some little thingies..
get waterproof eyeliner..
hhmm.. wat else..
a nice beauty sleep coz his flight is early in the morning..
oh, eye cream!
Friday, February 25, 2005
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
Do you constantly have trouble getting to sleep? Chances are this kind of insomnia is genetic. An article in the journal Sleep suggests that regular sufferers are more likely to have differences in one of the genes governing their body clocks. They are up until all hours because their internal timetable tells them to sleep only long after others have gone to bed. The result: they turn up for work feeling miserable. Author Dr. Emmanuel Mignot calls for insomniacs to be given genetic tests so they can begin figuring out which hours best suit their internal clocks. Now to find an employer whose idea of flextime is truly elastic.
When champion sprinter Florence Griffith Joyner died in September, some wondered if her premature end at age 38 might have been caused by use of performance-enhancing products (she never failed a drug test). New research suggests athletes who shine in power sports such as football - or sprinting - are more prone to heart attacks. Professor Michael Lean of Glasgow University based his finding on the health records of 231 ex-soldiers. The subjects were categorized according to whether they did better in endurance activities such as long-distance running, or in those requiring short bursts of power. About 19% of those with "power muscles" later suffered heart disease compared to 10% of those with "endurance muscles."
Tuesday, February 22, 2005
Friday, February 18, 2005
Thursday, February 17, 2005
i used to be able to run but now, besides the reason that i cant seemed to catch my breath, the soles of my feet have a tendecy to cramp easily, very easily.. one of the gym's instructor asked me if i am flat-footed.. thank god, i was not insulted ;> but no, i dont have flat-feet, my tennis coach said so! so i thot it must be becoz of my shoes as they are pretty old and getting uncomfortable..
so, ok, get new running shoes.. but there are thousands of shoes in the market and i have no freaking idea which one is best for my feet.. usually, i shop for tennis shoes and they are pretty easy to find (ok, the labels on the shoes do give it away) but running shoes are aliens to me.. i usually ended up looking for the cutest pair on the "wall" of shoes..
but now, i want the right one, and i dont trust the suggestions from any of the sales people in Malaysia.. they pretty much dont know what they are talking about and are only concern with whether or not we buy their stuff.. kinda irritating coz when we decided that we are not interested to buy, they automatically sulk and turn away..
so, i went looking in the internet on tips on how to find suitable running shoes.. and woo! i might be needing shoes for the flat-footed afterall!
HOW TO CHOOSE THE RIGHT SHOES From Runnersworld.co.uk
There’s no single ‘best shoe’ – everyone has different needs. All sorts of things - your biomechanics, your weight, the surfaces you run on, and obviously, the shape of your feet - mean that one person's ideal shoe can be terrible for another person. We divide our shoes into three main categories (cushioned, stability and motion control); and three minor ones (performance training, racing and off-road). The first three are everyday options and are categorised essentially by your biomechanical needs; the second three are more specialised and you’d often only consider them as second shoes.
The first step in finding your basic shoe needs is to try our 'Wet Test', below or, preferably, to visit a biomechanics expert or experienced shoe retailer. The Wet Test works works on the basis that the shape of your wet footprint on a dry floor or piece of paper roughly correlates with the amount of stability you might need in your shoe. Take note: 'roughly'! It's a handy starting point.
The Normal Foot
Normal feet have a normal-sized arch and will leave a wet footprint that has a flare, but shows the forefoot and heel connected by a broad band. A normal foot lands on the outside of the heel and rolls inwards slightly to absorb shock. It’s the foot of a runner who is biomechanically efficient and therefore doesn’t need a motion control shoe.
Best shoes: Stability shoes with moderate control features.
The Flat Foot
This has a low arch and leaves a print which looks like the whole sole of the foot. It usually indicates an overpronated foot – one that strikes on the outside of the heel and rolls inwards (pronates) excessively. Over time, this can cause many different types of overuse injuries.
Best shoes: Motion control shoes, or high stability shoes with firm midsoles and control features that reduce the degree of pronation. Stay away from highly cushioned, highly curved shoes, which lack stability features.
The High-Arched Foot
This leaves a print showing a very narrow band or no band at all between the forefoot and the heel. A curved, highly arched foot is generally supinated or underpronated. Because it doesn’t pronate enough, it’s not usually an effective shock absorber.
Best shoes: Cushioned (or 'neutral') shoes with plenty of flexibility to encourage foot motion. Stay away from motion control or stability shoes, which reduce foot mobility.
The Other Shoe Types
Our other shoe categories are for faster runners, and off-road runners: Performance Trainers, Racing Shoes & Off-road shoes
Monday, February 14, 2005
Friday, February 11, 2005
uurrrggghhh!! will try again tomorrow.. but planning to write never work for me.. the expectation of having to produce something is very stressful.. oh god, why am i making this so complicated? think of how u feel about him and it'll flow just fine..
i love my brothers, very very much, and i cant stop worrying about them every single minute, especially this one.. he loves fast cars and he loves driving them fast too, and i cant stand it.. i know how it feels like to love speed but not up to a certain level where it'll become a threat.. i hope it's just a phase, i hope he'll learn before it gets to him..
please god, watch over him...
Thursday, February 10, 2005
- remember Him always; let it be sunshine or rain, laughters or tears, i will try to remember Him with every beat of my heart, besides, He owns it.. the duties i've neglected are always reminded..
- kinder to my parents; u have rebuilt my bridge with them, sayang..
- mindful of my brothers;
- last but not least, i will make u happier, sayang, and i will love u more, forever..
i have succeeded in posting a picture in my blog! ok, lets not get too excited just yet, it's just ONE picture and it's only a clipart.. i have yet to learn how to make an album.. maybe later.. have to go down for dinner now, my brother has been relentlessly knocking on my door.. sigh.. dont they know the meaning of a diet? well, lets see, 18 more days to go before sayang arrives, ok, still have time..
anyways, i've decided to go back to KL this Saturday instead of Sunday, mainly to avoid the horrendous jam at Senawang-Seremban and then farah's son will be celebrating his 1st b'day this Sunday at 5.. oh, what to get him uh? what to get a one year old kid? toys? what sorta toys? soft toys, smart kid toys? clothes? he'll grow out of them in a matter of months.. hiya.. linda, since u're the future momsie-in-law, u figure it out k! hehehe..
k peeps, am gonna take a nap for a while..
anyways, i missed dinner.. went downstairs just now and ate the sup tulang my mom prepared and it was sooo yummy.. i havent had that dish for ages and it's as good as i remembered it to be..
oh no, guilt trip.. no, not over the soup i ate (geez, am not THAT bad).. it's over the fact that i sat up here, in my room, while my mom prepared dinner..
confession: i have been doing that for ages.. somehow, i cant seem to bring myself to help in the kitchen..
excuses: it's mom's territory and she's so skilled in there and i always feel inept just being there.. up till now.. and it led my parents to think that i cant cook.. eemm..
ok, pause for a moment, sayang's on the line..
UUURRRGGGHHH.... inhale exhale inhale exhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaleeeeeeee.... so, ok, does this mean that i cant blog anymore???
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
greetings from melaka and a very happy chinese new year!!
i had just spent 3 hot sweaty hours on the highway to Melaka (yes, aircond again) and it didnt get any better reaching here.. i wonder why Melaka is so much hotter than KL.. KL has more skyscrapers (well, actually, melaka has none :>) that are supposedly to retain more heat in the environment and also less green.. oh well, watever it is, it's still, without fail, feels like home.. home cooked meals, comfy childish bedroom, unlimited usage of computers and internet (daddy pays wat...) and ASTRO...
oh yes, didnt realize how much i miss Astro till i'm here.. cant believe how i actually survived with just 4, ok lets make that 3, RTM1 does not count, channels.. but i managed to hold off from getting Astro for myself, for nearly 5 years, giving myself all sorts of reasons.. reasons such as:
- i spent most of my waking hours in the office, the gym, the mamak stall and others
- weekends are for
i. recuperating from hangover,
ii. recuperating from bad week,
iii. lunches wih friends i dont see during weekdays
v. finishing off tonnes of work
vi. laundry & cleaning
- i will get one when i move into my own apartment
- i will get one when the new cable company starts to operate (competition will provide
- i will get one when i get married (so hubby will pay hehe)
- why waste 50 bucks on something i get to watch, oh mebe for 3 hrs a day,when i can use it
to get new pair of shoes every month.. logic eh
so anyways, there's no point of getting my own astro now, is there, sayang? :> ok, talk later peeps, mom's cooking something and it smells sooo good from up here...
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
i have always been a scholarly-clumsy-big-eyed-and-solemn kid.. my parents are big on education and restrain of oneself.. some of my frens still dont belief that the first time i actually listen and enjoy the radio was in my first year of boarding school.. god forbid if my dad caught me humming to the tunes.. for others, boarding schools might be a form of restriction but for me, secretly, it was freedom.. out of the gilded cage.. yes, the conditions of the school i went to was (and still is, i heard), undeniably, deplorable but the fact that it was far away from my parents made it heaven (once i've gotten all the kinks of being a brat out of my system ;>).. all i have to do were two things; maintain a straight A record and dont get caught.. and it was easy..
anyways, years of repressed feelings and emotions did strange things to my communication skills back then (HAHA! now i cant seemed to stop talking), so the easiest channel of self-expression was through my writings.. i wrote poetries, short and long stories, everything... but i have never shown them to anyone; they were always personal to me.. and in a way, it's that childhood insecurity of what-if-it's-not-good-enuf-for-others that got to me.. sigh..
anyways, almost all of my writings were lost in the packings from boarding school and went overseas.. now, i still write but i cant seem to sit still anymore.. i used to be able to sit at one place and just wander in my imagination (oh yeah, especially during high school history classes) for hours but now, there's always something, in reality, that interests me.. so that's why, sayang, the States will always be close to my heart.. i grew up, physically and mentally most of all, there... it was a painful process but it made me, what i am today and what i'll be tomorrow..
anyways, sepang was soooo hot yesterday (bad hot, not hot hot) and i was sweating like a pig during the meeting and all the way home coz my freaking aircond is still not fixed yet.. yes, gurls, since the first year it broke.. i just dont have time to fix it.. and i dont want to go and fix it alone.. yes, yes, dependency is a bad thing but if it has anything to do with cars (tyres and all), i would rather have them done by my macho man.. who, unfortunately is not here now.. sigh..
but dont tell me that u guys out there dont get all puffed up with pride when ur lil gurl frens call u up in their distress-cum-manja voices asking for ur help.. hahaha, a lil double standard for a supposedly-independent-i-can-do-them-myself woman, i know, but for things like this, why bother get my nails dirty (and broken for that matter) when i can get my sexy guy squatting and flexing his oh-so-yummy muscles for me.. but for my case, i have to wait every 2-3 months for my hunky sexy guy to be home.. sigh..
Monday, February 07, 2005
the weekends were excellent! met some old college friends whom i havent seen for the longest time, ever since we graduated for that matter.. all thanx to anis who came back for a visit from the States, so come back home more often beb!! i was exhausted but on a high-happy-gear and i have never eaten as much chocolate cakes as i did during those 2 days! i definitely have used up all of my bad calorie quota for the rest of the year.. sigh.. where has that losing-5kg-resolution went to? yes, down the drain..
anyways, of all the kids that our friends had so successfully produced (and will keep on producing ;>) i have to say that farah won the best looking son and tina the best looking daughter awards, under 5 years of age that is coz we never would know how they will look like in the future.. i was not a cute baby, but look how i turned out.. HAHAHAH!!! and looking at them, i cant wait to have my own.. sigh.. hopefully with maid though.. and we r not gonna have a set of football team k, sayang..
Friday, February 04, 2005
at least it's not on a weekends or something..
last year, ehmm.. what did i do on valentine's last year? oh, OH! i went to the BASIC last year.. yup, the main reason why i went was to avoid valentine's day coz it fell on a saturday!! and i just turned single and i was still in a mess and i didnt want to be 'wallup'ing the chocolate mud cake and ruining my cute ass.. i had to admit, last year i had a very cute ass!! hahah! oh, go ahead and puke.. and then, i got comfy and now, hmm... on to the stepper, missy!
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
anyways, am in a dilemma now.. should i apply for a new position now considering that i will be applying for a year off at the end of the year and currently am laden with a new responsibility till end of July? or should i just wait till i come back from my year off even if i have to endure another 9 months of bulls***?
sayang..... how????? i work with u lah ye.. ur personal executive assistant cum domestic engineering director ;> hahahaha!
Friday, January 28, 2005
going to the gym now.. oh, do we get unrecorded leaves if we work during holidays? me and zizi have to attend course tomorrow k! even if it's only one day holiday in the middle of the week, it still sucks..